December has been a blurr..
I don't even know what the heck happened to it. The last thing I really remember it was December 5th or 6th. Deep in my gut I knew the following two or three weeks were going to be rough, and that I probably shouldn't officially "start" training because between the work travel, and getting ready for the Holidays, I just knew.. I would be working against the odds.
No matter to me and my stubbornness though. No, no.. I was going to start training and I would be fine. After getting sick the week before I knew the first round of antibiotics would do their trick and the plan was to travel to four states in two weeks.. no problemo. I got this..
So I tried. I managed to make it through the first work trip.. while sort of sick, Oklahoma City and Dallas only to head home, get in my long ride on the weekend, attend the Pittsburgh Triathlon Ironman Party, leave again the next day for Vegas and then do a little personal stuff after. I think I made it through two days of the Vegas work trip before I got so sick again I felt like I was going to die. So much for being healthy and making it all happen!
When I finally arrived home I was exhausted, sick and had barely done any workouts over the two week span. Then I picked up my Mom on Monday of this week, got on my second round of antibiotics, drove her to my home town, turned around and went back to Pittsburgh, worked three days, shopped like a maniac, coached and ran my own business through all of this... and then here we are, Christmas.
I thought about using this particular blog as a bitch session. Then I thought better of it..because I decided that you know what.. that's life. As crazy and unplanned and not able to make it all work sometimes as I would like, I still love my life. I'm doing the best I can and sometimes, even though it doesn't feel good enough, and it feels like everyone else is getting their training is and getting stronger and fitter, sometimes you just have to take a breath and realize it's December and I just need to chill out and be Thankful. What can I say.. I live a full, whirlwind, crazy kind of life.
At the beginning of the week I had a small breakdown while driving back to Pittsburgh way to tired falling asleep at the wheel talking to Kyle, but I knew, even then, that this won't last forever, because frankly, it can't. I can't keep it up. It's impossible. We are reaching a breaking point and it's coming fast and furiously regardless of if I want it to or not. Balls are about to drop, I just have to make sure they are the appropriate ones.
Regardless, I won't be sick forever, in fact, I'm getting over it...have a wonderful husband, a great family, a first professional season, a huge surge in athletes who I'm so excited about each of their upcoming years, some great nutrition clients and a TV show that will air - eventually - someday (MTV Made - I want to be a triathlete for those of you just starting this journey).
I could be scrooge, but I think I'll just think of all those things and be happy it's not March... so chill the freak out Kim.
This season is one of my favorite and seeing friends and family, and retaining my sanity, is so very important to me, so I'm truly thankful for everything and everyone in my big full crazy life.
Thanks to those of you who have spent this year with me. Thank you for your patience, your love, your support and your gift of sharing my laughter, trials and tribulations (of which there has been plenty of both).
It's a Good Life... and I am Thankful. Merry Christmas to all and Happy Holidays my friends :)