One Door Closes, Another Opens

Life is ever changing.

How we adapt to those changes, either embrace them and accept them, or spend time mourning or wishing for the old days is one of the things that makes the difference between who we are now, and who we actually become.

As far as I'm concerned, 2011 was a great year. It had some ups and downs, but for the most part, I''m alive, I'm loved and have loved, I've found joy in my life and I hope I've brought a little joy to others along the way.

The road ahead stretches out in front of me and beckons me to a new path. Times are a changing my friends. Some of those changes will be scary, and the word "challenging" won't even hold a candle to what will describe others. However, they are 100% necessary and even if I fall on my face...I'll have this blog, and I'll remember how my heart was filled with hope and my eyes were set high on the stars.

If we shoot for the moon, we'll land in the stars.. yeah.. a bit cheesy mind you.. but I get the point. If you don't really go for it, then you'll never really see where you can end up. In the end, maybe it won't be where you thought, but maybe a higher power will have you right where you are supposed to be, learning what you are supposed to learn and becoming the person that you were meant to be in the end.

I'm ok with life being hard. I'm ok with making sacrifices (as long as it's not my faith, family or friends).

When I think of all the people who have entrusted me with helping to make their own personal goals and dreams come true, it's a little humbling...but I'm ready. I've prepared all my life for this part too. I've been there, done that. It hasn't been an easy road and I think that makes me not just a better person, but a better coach with more perspective. In the end, I can only hope I enrich their lives the way they have already enriched mine with each personality, goal, and belief.

Speaking of one who has made some of my giant leaps of faith possible (of which I have had many, and will undoubtedly have many more).

Kyle..

We've been through a lot.. At times, I wasn't sure if we were going to make it through, but we always have.

You've picked me up, dusted me off and then when I couldn't walk, you carried me the rest of the way.

From the good times, to some of the lowest times when I didn't even remotely believe in myself or my dreams you were always there, reminding me of why I was going to bed early, getting up at the crack of dawn or spending 6 hours on the trainer.

You get me... and I truly don't deserve you... but the main reason I am finally able to have the strength and confidence to do this is because of you. You're my best friend and I love you very much.

Thanks for giving me the courage to take chances and for knowing that no matter what, we are in this together.

As we welcome in 2012 in about twenty minutes, my love is laying on the couch next to me, sick with strep throat. Poor kid... Love isn't always pretty, but we do it, every day..regardless.

Here's to 2012 my friends! Let's see what it will bring! I don't know about you.. but I can't wait!

Savage Triathlon Camp 2012 - Come Join Us!

I can hardly believe it, but here is it.. my first opportunity to coach a triathlon came along with three other wonderful Pittsburgh based coaches. I couldn't be more excited about the USAT sanctioned triathlon specific training camp that Chad Holderbaum, Jeremy Cornman, Matt Mauclair and I will be holding in Deep Creek, Maryland from June 1st - June 3rd 2012.

I don't know how many of you have heard about the Savageman triathlon, but it is hard, well, it's very hard and then, well, it gets harder. However, it's set in a beautiful area and Chad and some of our other friends have been traveling to the Deep Creek area to train for years. It's a wonderful chance to swim in open water, learn in a classroom / lecture setting about topics such as nutrition, season planning and heart rate training all while getting information specific to you and your mechanics that will help making you a better athlete in 2012 and beyond.

You can read more about the camp schedule and details HERE. We all realize this is the weekend before Eagleman so many people will be training / tapering for that race. In fact, I will be doing that race as well, so there will be a shorter "tapering" group lead by yours truly on the group rides in the 25-30 mile range at a very reasonable pace.

If you are attempting Savageman this year, this is the perfect opportunity to see the course and ride it with some seasoned veterans in the sport who can answer questions for you about pacing etc. We will provide sag support for all the rides and will have an awesome bike mechanic (my friend Garvin!) from Top Gear bicycle shop with us during the duration of the camp checking bike fits, teaching how to properly fit a bike, change a flat and help with any needed repairs / aid stations etc.

You don't have to be a seasoned triathlete of 5+ years, nor do you need to be a beginner. Everyone will get something out of this camp and understand more about their own physiology and how to evolve as a triathlete to make better, training, racing and nutrition choices when they leave. It's not about training harder people, it's about training smarter.

We would love to have you! Make sure you sign up before January 31st because you can get the early bird rate! Let me know if you have any questions at kim@fuelyourpassion.net!

A Thankful Christmas to All

December has been a blurr..

I don't even know what the heck happened to it. The last thing I really remember it was December 5th or 6th. Deep in my gut I knew the following two or three weeks were going to be rough, and that I probably shouldn't officially "start" training because between the work travel, and getting ready for the Holidays, I just knew.. I would be working against the odds.

No matter to me and my stubbornness though. No, no.. I was going to start training and I would be fine. After getting sick the week before I knew the first round of antibiotics would do their trick and the plan was to travel to four states in two weeks.. no problemo. I got this..

Sha.. right.

So I tried. I managed to make it through the first work trip.. while sort of sick, Oklahoma City and Dallas only to head home, get in my long ride on the weekend, attend the Pittsburgh Triathlon Ironman Party, leave again the next day for Vegas and then do a little personal stuff after. I think I made it through two days of the Vegas work trip before I got so sick again I felt like I was going to die. So much for being healthy and making it all happen!

When I finally arrived home I was exhausted, sick and had barely done any workouts over the two week span. Then I picked up my Mom on Monday of this week, got on my second round of antibiotics, drove her to my home town, turned around and went back to Pittsburgh, worked three days, shopped like a maniac, coached and ran my own business through all of this... and then here we are, Christmas.

I thought about using this particular blog as a bitch session. Then I thought better of it..because I decided that you know what.. that's life. As crazy and unplanned and not able to make it all work sometimes as I would like, I still love my life. I'm doing the best I can and sometimes, even though it doesn't feel good enough, and it feels like everyone else is getting their training is and getting stronger and fitter, sometimes you just have to take a breath and realize it's December and I just need to chill out and be Thankful. What can I say.. I live a full, whirlwind, crazy kind of life.

At the beginning of the week I had a small breakdown while driving back to Pittsburgh way to tired falling asleep at the wheel talking to Kyle, but I knew, even then, that this won't last forever, because frankly, it can't. I can't keep it up. It's impossible. We are reaching a breaking point and it's coming fast and furiously regardless of if I want it to or not. Balls are about to drop, I just have to make sure they are the appropriate ones.

Regardless, I won't be sick forever, in fact, I'm getting over it...have a wonderful husband, a great family, a first professional season, a huge surge in athletes who I'm so excited about each of their upcoming years, some great nutrition clients and a TV show that will air - eventually - someday (MTV Made - I want to be a triathlete for those of you just starting this journey).

I could be scrooge, but I think I'll just think of all those things and be happy it's not March... so chill the freak out Kim.

This season is one of my favorite and seeing friends and family, and retaining my sanity, is so very important to me, so I'm truly thankful for everything and everyone in my big full crazy life.

Thanks to those of you who have spent this year with me. Thank you for your patience, your love, your support and your gift of sharing my laughter, trials and tribulations (of which there has been plenty of both).

It's a Good Life... and I am Thankful. Merry Christmas to all and Happy Holidays my friends :)

3Go Magazine Article - The Full Story

In a few days / weeks / I'm not really sure, an article will be coming out on a website called 3Go that chronicles five us of ladies of the 30-34 making the move to the professional ranks in 2012. I felt incredible privileged to even get the opportunity to participate in the article among such a talented group. As I read the final article draft (which was pretty awesome by the way! Great job Jordan!), one thing seems to be consistent, these ladies are not only smart and talented, but relentlessly driven and at the same time, humble and realistic about this next step. Not one of us have some idea of grandeur or that we'll be running down the unbelievable Miss Wellington any time soon. However, don't doubt it for one minute, these girls are ready to put it on the line and race their hearts out.. for all the right reasons.

Since only a very small portion of my comments are actually shared in the article, I decided that I would share the rest of my answers here so that you could see some of the thoughts behind my decision etc. It was a little strange and scary to put all of it down on paper (or on computer I guess), but I was so glad this article actually forced me to write it down and really give all of my answers some real thought. It was fun, but it was really hard at the same time. The questions were tough and thought provoking and the answers weren't cut and dry.

Hopefully, you can find a few things you relate to in here and most of all, just get a little laugh. I can't help who I am.. I'm me.. and that's that.

Thanks for reading & let me know what you think!

“Going Pro” article – questionnaire for new pros

Name: Kim Schwabenbauer

Age: 32

Occupation: Registered Dietitian, USA Triathlon Coach, Owner of Fuel Your Passion, LLC Sports Nutrition Counseling & Endurance Coaching

Where do you live?: Pittsburgh, PA

1. How did you get your start in triathlon?

I started in triathlon as a result of being a runner for many years and wanting to take on another challenge. Beth Shutt, a good friend and fellow Penn State Cross-Country teammate, had shared with me that she had begun doing triathlons the previous year and really enjoyed the three sport disciplines vs. just being a runner (which we did all through college). On a work trip to the Big Island, I saw the sign for the Ironman World Championship starting line and I said to my husband, “I’m going to do that race one day!” He suggested that maybe I should start with a shorter triathlon first. From breast-stroking my first triathlon swim to three years later standing at start of the Ironman World Championships in 2008 grinning from ear to ear, my first dream in triathlon had come true.

2. What’s your athletic background?

I came from strictly a running background. A cross-county / track athlete in high school and college, I loved running and it was almost born and bred in our family to be runners. My Mother, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, at one point or another, all of us have been runners and taken on local races up to the marathon distance. After marginal success in high-school, I never thought I could run at the college level, especially after being accepted to Penn State University, a division one program. After completing my freshman year, I called the coach of the cross-country team and asked about walking onto the team. I tried out, and spent the next four years having some of the best experiences of my life with those girls, including Beth. I graduated as a team captain and top scorer for the traveling team. After doing the Boston Marathon in 2005, it was time for a new gig. The rest is history.

3. What’s your strongest discipline?

I would definitely say running. It’s my background and my passion. I’m learning to love the other two slowly, and biking has brought a whole new world of spending time with friends and acquaintances out on 6 hour rides seeing the countryside. I love the freedom biking provides to see so much ground and really get to know people. Swimming, well, we have our days where we are friends, and then our days where we are not.

4. Which discipline do you think needs most improvement now that you’re joining the pro field? How do you plan to tackle this?

Oh, that's easy swim definitely needs the most work. I’ve had Ironman swims under an hour (IM Cozumel 2010, which I’m pretty sure was with a big current!), but I don’t seem to be consistent and when the water gets rough I really seem to lose focus and not swim nearly as well. I have a feeling it will be a very lonely experience on the bike if I don’t improve this area and talk about racing from behind! It’s much more fun and more motivating to be in the mix. I plan to swim 4 to 5 times a week at a minimum to really improve on this discipline next year. I’m also doing some video analysis with my coach next month in Colorado Springs, hoping to figure out where some of the issues may be in my technique. Hopefully, that will bring about a better and more consistent swim.

5. What made you decide to “go pro”?

I decided to turn pro for many different reasons. Just a few of those reasons relate to my drive and determination to compete at the highest level possible. After winning two amateur titles at the IM distance, I had a feeling with some more training I may be able to improve my times, and although it might be a tough process to get on the pro podium, I’m willing to put in the time and take the risk. I believe progress takes risks and I’m willing to take those risks as long as I keep the right prospective on my life, what’s important and why I am making this move. Our strongest athletic years are in our 30’s and I’m 32, so I’m not getting any younger. If I would ever like to have a family (and I would), now is the time to take this chance and see what these next few years bring.

6. Will racing as a pro change how you plan your season? If so, how?

Certainly, the flexibility that pro’s have in terms of planning their race season is a nice part of this process. You’re able to plan an “A” schedule and then also a “B” or even “C” possible schedule if things don’t go as planned or there are certain goals that aren’t being met. The new point system that the WTC has put into place certainly may be a driving factor in subsequent years. For now, I’m choosing races that will suit my particular strengths, are economically feasible, and that will give me some good experience next year as I learn about the different nuances of racing in a pro field vs. an amateur field. I’m taking a very hard look at the Rev 3 races as well because of some of the great experiences I’ve had with them as an amateur. I’ll race more, I’ll race often and I hope that my body will adjust to the heavier training and racing load this upcoming year that being a pro requires.

7. What do you expect to be the challenges of competing in the pro field?

I’ve done my homework on some of the challenges of competing in the pro field and I feel a bit more prepared mentally to face those than I would be otherwise. Some of my friends and mentors in this sport have talked about the challenges of racing alone for much of the race and still pushing yourself to your own potential limits. I know that when I get on the bike it can be a challenge coming from the back if you don’t have a good swim. I’m hoping to see my swim times improve, but until then, I think it will be a bit of an adjustment! At the amateur level I was used to being around other competitors and had the confidence that I could, and would, possibly catch them if I raced my race and did my best. In the pro race, there certainly will be competitors out of reach of my current ability and I’ll have to adjust to that as well. I think this race strategy will be more about focusing on what I can improve about my race for a year or so and hopefully at that point, be more competitive / put the pieces together to have “that dream race” again as a pro. I’m sure there will be plenty of races that will not come together and you have to keep your expectations / goals and reasons for doing the sport in check so that you can continue to improve throughout the process. I feel pretty darn honored just to have the option to make the choice and to line up against some of those people whom I feel are incredible athletes, but more importantly incredible women, well, that’s a huge bonus. I don’t think I’ll ever regret taking this chance and learning more about myself and the other amazing women in this sport.

8. What will you not miss about being an amateur?

I will not miss the mass swim starts that were required to compete at the Ironman as an amateur. Really! I won’t miss them one bit. However, I’ve heard there is plenty of beating around that goes on during the pro race as well and I’m sure I’ll still come out bumped and bruised just like I did as an amateur! Of course, I will also not miss having to sign up an entire year in advance for races that I want to attend as an amateur either. It’s so very hard to plan out your life for an entire year around one event. We’ve all been doing it for years so we know that’s what it takes, but it will be nice to have a bit more flexibility and adjust for injury, training blocks, goals and life in general.

9. What concerns you most about your decision to race as a pro?

What concerns me most about my decision to race as a pro is having the time to train to put myself at a level where I have the opportunity to be competitive at this level of the sport without sacrificing the time with my family, friends and having the stable income needed to still pay bills, money for groceries, travel, etc. This is the major issue as I see it with all of the professionals in our sport. This is not professional golf people. You don’t win one title and have enough to live on for a year. At most, if you place top five in our sport you have enough to cover your trip costs and a bit left over to live. Since triathlon isn’t a main stream sport, we have to come up with those ideas for being innovative and be willing to take calculated risks to have the funds needed to be in the sport while still having the time required to train 25+ hours per week. I’m willing to make personal sacrifices on some fronts, such as living a little leaner etc., but not on others like spending time with my family etc. Keeping this balance is what worries me the most and making sure I maintain it while being happy with the lifestyle this change will require.

10. How will your training change in the coming year as you prepare for your first season as a pro?

Training for my first pro season definitely is exciting and will require some additional time spent on all three disciplines. I also am really trying to identify some underlying strength issues such as imbalances etc. because as the volume increases, those little imbalances have the potential to become big problems. I’m working with someone to address those BEFORE the season really gets started and will spend the next few months doing a bit more strength training than I would have in years past. In addition, my power on the bike is something I struggle with being a smaller athlete, so I’m doing some cross-fit and other supplemental training to address those issues and hopefully, improve my power on the bike. Lastly, I’m sure my weekly volume will increase and if things work out the way I am hoping they do, I’ll have a bit more time to focus on training vs. balancing 40 hours per week of working + training + life. We’ll see – that’s TBD still!

11. What has been your favorite/most memorable triathlon experience to date?

Well, this is a tough one, it might be a tie. One of most memorable triathlon experience to date was having a breakthrough race at Ironman Cozumel in 2010 after breaking my collarbone into pieces exactly one year before at the Half Ironman World Championships and spending the first part of 2010 in a sling not able to do much training. It had been a really tough process and I found myself rather depressed and unsure of myself, my ability or even my next steps in the sport (if any) at times during that recovery. However, as I regained my confidence slowly, I started to believe a good race in Cozumel was possible, but it would take having a day. I was blessed to have that day and it all came together. It was bitter sweet to say the least.

The other was probably finishing Ironman Lake Placid this year. It had been a really challenging month, I was filming for MTV for their show “MADE, I want to be a triathlete” and I was running low on sleep, training and sanity prior to the race. Branden, the 16 yr old athlete I was working with to do the Pittsburgh Triathlon in a 3 week period, was coming from Pittsburgh to Lake Placid to see the race as his first triathlon. There were so many logistics to work out with the film crew and producers that I barely even got to think about the race. I was pretty worried based on my lack of training consistency leading up to the race that I would even have a decent race, let alone do well. At some point, I let it all go and just decided to pray about it and see what happened. As the day unfolded I went from 45^th in the swim, to 4^th off the bike to 1^st female amateur at the finish. Just knowing that Branden, my family, my team members from Ballou Skies, our charity team and Kyle, my husband, were at the finish and they knew how trying it had all been just made it so sweet to cross that finish line. Kyle and his Mom were right there to hug me, as was Branden and the whole film crew. It was surreal to have them there in the finish and I was happy beyond words. It felt like a dream. I was so thankful everything worked out – sometimes you have to let it go and just trust and I know that was a lesson I will not soon forget.

12. What question(s) do you wish I had asked you? And what is your response?

Question: What has the response been among your family / friends / others / other athletes to this decision?

The response has been mixed, mostly supportive, but also not quite what I expected. As always, going against what people consider a “main stream” type of life has its challenges. I think it’s difficult for some people to accept that your goals and dreams aren’t the same as theirs, or maybe aren’t the same as theirs right now anyway. Of course, there are those in my life who know me well and are 110% supportive in every way possible and I’m thankful beyond words for those people. Others, well, they don’t even acknowledge the difference between competing at this new level which is fine too. It certainly never stopped me before :)

Fit Squared

I'm fighting..

I'll have you know I'm fighting tooth and nail.

One slow bit at a time, I'm clawing my way back to health. It isn't through complete rest (like it should be, or that I wish it would be per say)! Instead, I'm still working my butt off, traveling for work and just fighting.. drinking till I'm all out sprinting to the restroom, peeing like a pregnant lady, attempting to eat health, sleep somewhat enough and take my antibiotics. This is me vs. the sickness.. and I'm attempting to beat it's ..... well.... you know.

It's a tricky bugger.. it won't back down.. but you know what.. I'm gonna stand my ground too. I'm getting there.. slowly but surely, and in the end.. I'm taking it down to china town. I can't WAIT to get better. Like want to throw a small party in my own honor kind of can't wait. O well.. We do what we can.

In the mean time, I'm trying to keep my head above water, get my work down.. attempt to work out (a little) and just make it. Sometimes, that's all we can do. So, that's what I've been doing!

I DID want to share one picture (because that's all I have, because, consequently, in the mix of all this sickness I decided to wash my phone in the washer). Yeah, I know.. I could just wipe it down, but what the hey.... why not just chuck a $100 deductible down the toilet and give it a good cleaning you know!! So, that's where all of my pictures went.

When I heard Top Gear was doing Retul fits I was just super excited. I had heard so much about the accuracy and the fact that you could actually measure the angles with LOAD on the pedals while you were riding. I couldn't WAIT to get this done. It was an awesome experience to have the staff at Top Gear (well, Jake, the fitter) take a look at EVERYTHING that was specific to me. He had me take off my shoes and took a look at my ankles, arches and then he even measured flexibility on a massage table and use those measurements in the fit as well. It was just fun! The best part was I KNEW without a shadow of a doubt, not only would I feel better, but I would be more aero in the end. It was a really cool experience and even though it's expensive, I would HIGHLY recommend it. Considering how much time we spend on the dang bike, it's worth it to make sure you can breath, and breath well, and also spend time on the bike without hurting your back etc.

By the time I finished, I really did feel so much better, so much more stretched out!! It just makes me excited about the year and about the amount of time I'm going to be spending on the bike!

When I get more pictures (from Don, the owner of Top Gear who took them), I'll post those. If you have any questions about retul, check out their website or feel free to ask! It's amazing!

A BIG thanks to those guys, especially Jake, for a great fit and for checking on me after (we went a little TOO aero on the bars at first, and he checked in and then we adjusted a little back out where I was used to).

Have you retuled? What did you think? What else are you doing to get ready for 2012?