“Dare to be brave, dare to give your best, dare to dream
beyond your wildest expectations.
Dare…to be Great!”
I posted this on twitter after day two of QT2 pro camp
in Clermont, Florida and one of the more challenging days of training I’ve had
this year. Sure, the numbers on paper
made it look challenging in itself.
4400 meter swim
4.5 hour bike with strength / low cadence work mixed in
1 hr run / TRX strength session
This is also known as a seven hour training day. It doesn’t include any time prepping bottles,
eating, changing clothes, showering, stretching, and using my NormaTec
boots.
The swim went well and I was optimistic as I headed out on
the bike. Every day is a surprise here. We don’t know what we are doing that day,
most of the time, until the moment we are partaking in the workout. For us type-A personalities, at times this
spells anxiety, but I’m learning to roll with it. After meeting the group at our meeting place
we were given our instructions.
Roomies: Stephanie, Jacqui and I
Photo Credit: Jacqui Gordon
The weather had brought decent temps in the high 50’s and a
very healthy dose of wind (15+mph). We
rolled out our very first chance to see what the hours of time spent on the
trainer in previous months would bring in comparison to the other professional
athletes. I kept repeating to myself to
work “my plan”, just as we do in racing, to achieve the goals for the day. We weren’t allowed to draft for the first
section of the workout so I was left to many of my own thoughts and
devices. One worry was not being overly
familiar with the route. We had ridden
it yesterday as a group but while chit-chatting it was easy to not make mental
notes about where to make turns etc.
Things started to unfold and low and behold I was feeling
great. The legs were there and even
though at many points there were no other athletes in sight, I felt fairly
confident that I was holding my own and doing a good job following the
route. At about 1 hr 30 mins in things
began to unravel and fast.
Four words / Two insects: Yellow Jacket & Fire Ants
Four words / Two insects: Yellow Jacket & Fire Ants
You may wonder how those two things can come together, oh
but when they do, watch out! One second
your riding along and the next your head feels like someone punched a thumb
tack into it as you feel the little guy wiggling around trying to get out. He hook, line and sinkered right into one of
my helmet air openings and with fairly heavy traffic to my left on a major
highway the thing NOT to do is swerve around like a dang fool and get yourself
killed! I managed to slow down, whip the
helmet off and rub my hand over my hairline to make sure he was not continuing
to sting, but when I looked in the helmet there he was. The bugger wouldn’t let go. Thank heavens Tim Snow, Cait’s husband, came
upon me dancing around and swinging my helmet like I doing some kind of rain
dance to calm me down and handle removing the culprit. I stood by patiently but twenty seconds later
my right ankle was being pricked by hundreds of needles. What the?!!
I look down to see fire ants crawling up my shoe and all over my
ankle. Now I’m whipping my shoe off and
sock off as fast as humanly possible while shouting a few choice words. Other riders are whipping by us on the narrow
space between the shoulder and road.
After managing to finally remove most of the ants, Tim hands me back my
helmet and wishes me luck on the rest of the workout and he’s gone.
Now I’m last and I feel only about 70% sure of where I’m
going. Taking a minute to compose myself
I’m back on the bike and striving to keep Tim in sight. Pedaling, Pedaling, Pedaling.. I catch a
glimpse of his jersey, but he’s moving farther and farther away. There’s a turn up ahead, but where?
He’s gone and I’m out on some highway knowing I’ve missed a
turn. I call coach Jesse and get some
road directions. Gutting it out on my
own, my mental attitude starts turning from bad to worse. Finally, I see coach’s car and he gives me
the next instructions in hopes of meeting up with a group on Sugarloaf
Mountain. “This can still go well” I
tell myself. My power numbers are
looking somewhat good, in fact, better than normal, surprisingly.
Making the turn toward the hills I see my friend & teammate Jacqui going the other way and I take a glance behind me and see a
group of three pro men and other teammate Jessie Donovan with them coming like a
freight train. In my gut I know one
thing, and one thing only, it’s decision time.
Do I turn around and ride with the athletes I see coming the other way
or try to hang with this strong group coming my way.
I now have permission from coach to work into harder zones,
so that can’t be used as an excuse.
"Blue Pill or Red Pill. Blue Pill or Red Pill" My mind races..
"Blue Pill or Red Pill. Blue Pill or Red Pill" My mind races..
Dang it. Red Pill,
let’s do this. Gearing down I start
cranking up my speed getting ready for what’s to come. “This is going to hurt, but Jessie is doing
it. She’s one of the strongest cyclists
I know, but pay that no attention, let’s go!” I tell myself.
They engulf me and in one swift move I’m on the back. I swerve onto Jessie’s wheel and we ride up and
down rollers. My heart rate soars, my
legs burn, but I’m hanging on. Finally,
we head out of the hilly section and we’re headed back to home. I decide to try to maintain my distance for
the non-drafting section home between Jessie and I even though I’m somewhat
cooked.
Somehow, some way, I’m staying with her. Low and behold I look down at my power to
find the highest numbers I’ve ever held for the last 28 miles and I can tell by
the time it’s about to turn over. Hold
it Kim – HOLD IT!! You can bank
this!! Renewed in spirit, my energy
starts welling back up again. A new
milestone set as the Garmin beeps and resets to the next 28 mile split.
Following Jessie gets a bit easier as time goes on, but never
allows for loss of focus. She’s my best
chance of getting home and knowing where I am for sure so letting her go really
isn’t an option. Finally, she waits up
once we are allowed to ride together again for our trip back to the complex. I breath a huge sigh of relief.
When we finally pull in, I’m feeling wind burned,
emotionally spent and happy as hell. The
day brought a full range of emotions and at certain times I didn’t think I
could turn it around and somehow, I did.
Sometimes we have to be brave. Sometimes we have to get out of our way so
that we can take on a challenge that we didn’t think we were capable of
overcoming. Sometimes we have to not
think and JUST DO (Jessie Donvan quote!).
Sometimes we surprise ourselves with what we are capable of after
all. I know I did that day.
Coach’s theme for the day was “strength” and it took some
time for me to pull it out, but at some point I finally did and I’m thankful
for that. Each day here will be hard for different reasons. I'm learning so much about myself and what I really am capable of both mentally and physically and I am just so grateful for the opportunity to be here. I don't take it lightly. Kyle's made sacrifices beyond belief so that I can give this a shot and live my dreams. My athletes are having to be a bit more lenient because I'm not my usual self with coaching getting back to them on email within 4 hours.
That's why I have to give every single day my best. Even my recovery days have to be perfect because the hard days will be almost impossible without it. For the first time, I feel like I'm living the "real" life of a pro and it's really really cool.
I'm thankful to my sponsors who are supporting me through great coaching, gear and even emotional support (like my silent "gas" sponsor who helped me get Florida!)! I could not do it without you!
That's why I have to give every single day my best. Even my recovery days have to be perfect because the hard days will be almost impossible without it. For the first time, I feel like I'm living the "real" life of a pro and it's really really cool.
I'm thankful to my sponsors who are supporting me through great coaching, gear and even emotional support (like my silent "gas" sponsor who helped me get Florida!)! I could not do it without you!
Stay tuned! This should be interesting & even on those hard days, those really hard days, know that a great swim, ride or run is still possible even when EVERYTHING is falling apart, even when the obstacles seem insurmountable. DON'T GIVE UP. If you don't believe in you, no one else will. It all starts inside our heart and with a willingness to dream!
GO for it!
1 comment:
LOVE this post. Thought of it while I was really struggling on my running intervals this AM and it helped me keep the pace. You got this lady :)
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