Fuel Your Passion

I needed this, you might too

2012-01-26T17:23:00.002-08:00

First and foremost, thank you all for the wonderful support about the show airing and this upcoming season! I'm so grateful I had the opportunity to be part of Branden's journey. He is a wonderful person with a big heart who truly wanted to honor his family, Ryan and achieve his dreams. He still inspires me to want to do better, every day.

With that said, I'm kind of in a funk. The hype has subsided and I've been wallowing in my own sicky germness for the week. I can't believe I'm sick again. This will be the third time in two months. I'm on antibiotics (again), which worries me.

Instead of having a bitch session, I'll just tell you that things are about to change and when they do, I'll be ready with open arms and an even more open heart. I'll have known how hard I worked to get here, and I'll be so thankful every day when I wake up for the opportunities I've been given. Not much working out has been going on lately, just lots of traveling for work, so nothing to report there.

If you could use some motivation, well, then that makes two of us. Let's lift our eyes to the sky shall we? Say a prayer and believe that good things are about to happen..

Thanks for the great email Tom. Loved it. Kyle too.. I'll be sharing some good vibes from my supporters, friends and those in my life who will never let me sulk around too long :) Enjoy!

1. You’re stronger than you think you are.
2. Mistakes teach you important lessons. Every time you make one, you’re one step closer to your goal.
3. There is nothing to hold you back except you.
4. You can press forward long after you can’t. It’s a matter of wanting it bad enough.
5. No matter how much progress you make there will always be the people who insist that whatever you’re trying to do is impossible.
6. You are limited only by your own imagination. Let it fly.
7. Perception is reality.
8. Your instincts can be trusted.
9. There is only one question to ask yourself: “What would you do if you were not afraid?”
10. It’s often hard to tell just how close you are to success.
11. The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.
12. Never let success get to your head, and never let failure get to your heart.
13. You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.
14. Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.
15. Do what you love, not what you think you’re supposed to do.
16. Laughter is the best medicine for stress. Laugh at yourself often.
17. If you want to feel rich, just count all the great things you have that money can’t buy.
18. Forgiving yourself is far more important than getting others to forgive you.
19. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, you’ll often find that you’re right.
20. Be nice to yourself.
21. For the most part, it doesn’t matter what people think. Follow your own truth.
22. No education is wasted. Drink in as many new experiences as you can.
23. Making one person smile can change the world.
24. Don’t forget to enjoy your journey!
25. You never know how strong you really are until being strong is the only choice you have.
26. Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
27. You cannot change what you refuse to confront.
28. Crying doesn’t indicate that you’re weak. It doesn’t always solve your problems either.
29. No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
30. Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.
31. You can learn great things from your mistakes when you aren’t busy denying them.
32. Give up worrying about what others think of you.
33. When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you.
34. You have to accept that some things will never be yours, and learn to appreciate the things that are only yours.
35. As Henry Ford put it, “Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you are right.”
36. Don’t be afraid to move out of your comfort zone. Some of your best life experiences and opportunities will transpire only after you dare to lose.
37. Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough and smart enough to let go.
38. You’ll rarely be 100% sure it will work. But you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work.
39. Don’t dwell on the past or worry about the future for too long. Right now is life. Live it.
40. No matter how cautiously you choose your words, someone will always twist them around and misinterpret what you say. Just say what you need to say.
41. Not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of good luck.
42. If you are passionate about something, pursue it, no matter what anyone else thinks. That’s how dreams are achieved.
43. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.
44. What lies before us and behind us are tiny matters when compared to what lies within us.
45. Don’t pray when it rains if you don’t pray when the sun shines.
46. It’s not about getting a chance, it’s about taking a chance.
47. If it were easy everyone would do it.
48. Be vulnerable.
49. A problem is a chance for you to learn.
50. Regardless of the situation, life goes on.

2012 Race Schedule & MTV Air Date

2012-01-13T17:04:00.015-08:00

I'm not even going to tell you about how I've been running around like a crazy women on a mission, working my tail off and getting just enough sleep not to crash. You already know all about that.

Let's talk about more important things instead. Let's talk about you and me. How we've been through some real struggles, trials and tribulations. Let's talk about how you've believed in me and encouraged me. Let's talk about how much I appreciate each of you who reads this blog and care enough to leave a word of encouragement. You know who you are, and even if you don't write, just you checking in means a great deal to me.

With that said, even though it's hard for me to see past next week, lots of wonderful things are on the horizon so if I wasn't about to work for the next three hours and then fly to Orlando tomorrow morning, I would raise a glass with you and celebrate a little!

MTV has notified me of a very possible air date (with the caveat that the programmers still could change it last minute, but that it seems PRETTY definite) and that is:

January 20th at 7:00pm EST! MTV Made I want to be a Triathlete - Branden

The 2012 race schedule has been tentatively decided and is as follows:

April 1 - Galveston 70.3

May 6 - Rev 3 Knoxville (Olymp)

May 19 - Ironman TX

June 10 - Eagleman 70.3

August 12 - Rev 3 Wisconsin Dells Half

Sept 9 - Rev 3 Full IM Cedar Point

October - TBD

Nov 19 - Ironman AZ

Obviously, this is a lot to bite off, but I feel confident in my coach, my training, and most of all, my support system (which includes you fine folks!). I'm super excited about the possibilities and I hope, most of all, to complete my first year healthy and learning what it takes to compete at this level. Whatever that brings, it brings.

I'm thankful the show is finally airing (hopefully) and I can't wait for you to see Branden achieve his dreams. It was such a life changing experience for both of us and I truly will never be the same. It was just awesome. Wait until you see :)

SO TUNE IN! Also, you'll notice a new look for the blog! Well, it goes with my new website:

FUEL YOUR PASSION (upgraded!)

Head on over and check it out!!! Make sure you watch the video "Meet Kim" that Kyle and I worked so hard on over the past month or two! Kyle is unbelievable and I could never do this without him, his partner Jason, Anna, the web designer for their company and the many people who help me edit every blooming thing that I want to put out there.

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New Year, New Ideas, New Changes Toward a Healthier You!

2012-01-05T07:57:00.014-08:00

It's that time of year, gyms are overly crowded, those of us who workout regularly are swearing and griping under our breath and a whole new group has decided to make healthy changes. I've already seen some comments on facebook about extra "New Years Resolutioners" in their swim lanes and some other general bitching around the locker room.

Yessssss, it may be inconvenient. Yeeeesssss, it might take a little more time to get ready in the morning. You know what though, 2/3'rds of Americans are overweight or obese. Slowly but surely, we are becoming a sick, weak and unhealthy country. So, instead of so much negativity, why don't we embrace these people and help them on their way to better health.

I KNOW many people reading this blog are triathletes, marathoners, friends, family, fellow awesome bloggers and most of you are in pretty good shape, read waaaayyyy too much about training and nutrition and generally lead a lifestyle that others would KILL to know more about and even be able to do 1/4 of what you do. What if we make a pact and promise that we will help encourage one new person through January to eat a bit healthier or engage them in conversation at the gym so that they have a bit more knowledge and a friendly face to say hi to when they show up the next time.

Just a thought :) I'll do it if you do it.. come on.. this might be their only chance to reverse a trend of pre-diabetes, hypertension, or other critical health aliment that could be completely turned around and put them back on track with diet and exercise!

If you are pretty hard core in terms of nutrition, and want to make sure you keep your workouts on track this winter, make sure you read the article Paul Tyler and I wrote for Active.com on
Winter Nutrition: How to Stay on Track!

It helps explain why it's not just important to do your workout, but to time the nutrient intake to maximize energy and recovery along with a little bit on weight management through these cooollldd days as well!

Paul also created a cool new app for the iphone called TriEssential! It offers instant inspiration via daily triathlon training tips, motivating quotes and awesome photos. Check it out HERE.

Finally, if you are in Pittsburgh, please come by and see me at Prima Yoga on January 21st to RENEW YOUR HEALTH IN 2012!! It will be an in depth seminar on all types

of topics that will enhance and energize your life!! Please go to their facebook page for more details!

Hope to see you there! Remember, you have the power to change someone's day or even life!

"It's never too late, it's never too bad, you're never too old or too sick to start from scratch once again."

- Bikram Choudhury

One Door Closes, Another Opens

2011-12-31T20:28:00.012-08:00

Life is ever changing.

How we adapt to those changes, either embrace them and accept them, or spend time mourning or wishing for the old days is one of the things that makes the difference between who we are now, and who we actually become.

As far as I'm concerned, 2011 was a great year. It had some ups and downs, but for the most part, I''m alive, I'm loved and have loved, I've found joy in my life and I hope I've brought a little joy to others along the way.

The road ahead stretches out in front of me and beckons me to a new path. Times are a changing my friends. Some of those changes will be scary, and the word "challenging" won't even hold a candle to what will describe others. However, they are 100% necessary and even if I fall on my face...I'll have this blog, and I'll remember how my heart was filled with hope and my eyes were set high on the stars.

If we shoot for the moon, we'll land in the stars.. yeah.. a bit cheesy mind you.. but I get the point. If you don't really go for it, then you'll never really see where you can end up. In the end, maybe it won't be where you thought, but maybe a higher power will have you right where you are supposed to be, learning what you are supposed to learn and becoming the person that you were meant to be in the end.

I'm ok with life being hard. I'm ok with making sacrifices (as long as it's not my faith, family or friends).

When I think of all the people who have entrusted me with helping to make their own personal goals and dreams come true, it's a little humbling...but I'm ready. I've prepared all my life for this part too. I've been there, done that. It hasn't been an easy road and I think that makes me not just a better person, but a better coach with more perspective. In the end, I can only hope I enrich their lives the way they have already enriched mine with each personality, goal, and belief.

Speaking of one who has made some of my giant leaps of faith possible (of which I have had many, and will undoubtedly have many more).

Kyle..

We've been through a lot.. At times, I wasn't sure if we were going to make it through, but we always have.

You've picked me up, dusted me off and then when I couldn't walk, you carried me the rest of the way.

From the good times, to some of the lowest times when I didn't even remotely believe in myself or my dreams you were always there, reminding me of why I was going to bed early, getting up at the crack of dawn or spending 6 hours on the trainer.

You get me... and I truly don't deserve you... but the main reason I am finally able to have the strength and confidence to do this is because of you. You're my best friend and I love you very much.

Thanks for giving me the courage to take chances and for knowing that no matter what, we are in this together.

As we welcome in 2012 in about twenty minutes, my love is laying on the couch next to me, sick with strep throat. Poor kid... Love isn't always pretty, but we do it, every day..regardless.

Here's to 2012 my friends! Let's see what it will bring! I don't know about you.. but I can't wait!

Savage Triathlon Camp 2012 - Come Join Us!

2011-12-28T11:44:00.006-08:00

I can hardly believe it, but here is it.. my first opportunity to coach a triathlon came along with three other wonderful Pittsburgh based coaches. I couldn't be more excited about the USAT sanctioned triathlon specific training camp that Chad Holderbaum, Jeremy Cornman, Matt Mauclair and I will be holding in Deep Creek, Maryland from June 1st - June 3rd 2012.

I don't know how many of you have heard about the Savageman triathlon, but it is hard, well, it's very hard and then, well, it gets harder. However, it's set in a beautiful area and Chad and some of our other friends have been traveling to the Deep Creek area to train for years. It's a wonderful chance to swim in open water, learn in a classroom / lecture setting about topics such as nutrition, season planning and heart rate training all while getting information specific to you and your mechanics that will help making you a better athlete in 2012 and beyond.

You can read more about the camp schedule and details HERE. We all realize this is the weekend before Eagleman so many people will be training / tapering for that race. In fact, I will be doing that race as well, so there will be a shorter "tapering" group lead by yours truly on the group rides in the 25-30 mile range at a very reasonable pace.

If you are attempting Savageman this year, this is the perfect opportunity to see the course and ride it with some seasoned veterans in the sport who can answer questions for you about pacing etc. We will provide sag support for all the rides and will have an awesome bike mechanic (my friend Garvin!) from Top Gear bicycle shop with us during the duration of the camp checking bike fits, teaching how to properly fit a bike, change a flat and help with any needed repairs / aid stations etc.

You don't have to be a seasoned triathlete of 5+ years, nor do you need to be a beginner. Everyone will get something out of this camp and understand more about their own physiology and how to evolve as a triathlete to make better, training, racing and nutrition choices when they leave. It's not about training harder people, it's about training smarter.

We would love to have you! Make sure you sign up before January 31st because you can get the early bird rate! Let me know if you have any questions at kim@fuelyourpassion.net!

A Thankful Christmas to All

2011-12-23T17:07:00.008-08:00

December has been a blurr..

I don't even know what the heck happened to it. The last thing I really remember it was December 5th or 6th. Deep in my gut I knew the following two or three weeks were going to be rough, and that I probably shouldn't officially "start" training because between the work travel, and getting ready for the Holidays, I just knew.. I would be working against the odds.

No matter to me and my stubbornness though. No, no.. I was going to start training and I would be fine. After getting sick the week before I knew the first round of antibiotics would do their trick and the plan was to travel to four states in two weeks.. no problemo. I got this..

Sha.. right.

So I tried. I managed to make it through the first work trip.. while sort of sick, Oklahoma City and Dallas only to head home, get in my long ride on the weekend, attend the Pittsburgh Triathlon Ironman Party, leave again the next day for Vegas and then do a little personal stuff after. I think I made it through two days of the Vegas work trip before I got so sick again I felt like I was going to die. So much for being healthy and making it all happen!

When I finally arrived home I was exhausted, sick and had barely done any workouts over the two week span. Then I picked up my Mom on Monday of this week, got on my second round of antibiotics, drove her to my home town, turned around and went back to Pittsburgh, worked three days, shopped like a maniac, coached and ran my own business through all of this... and then here we are, Christmas.

I thought about using this particular blog as a bitch session. Then I thought better of it..because I decided that you know what.. that's life. As crazy and unplanned and not able to make it all work sometimes as I would like, I still love my life. I'm doing the best I can and sometimes, even though it doesn't feel good enough, and it feels like everyone else is getting their training is and getting stronger and fitter, sometimes you just have to take a breath and realize it's December and I just need to chill out and be Thankful. What can I say.. I live a full, whirlwind, crazy kind of life.

At the beginning of the week I had a small breakdown while driving back to Pittsburgh way to tired falling asleep at the wheel talking to Kyle, but I knew, even then, that this won't last forever, because frankly, it can't. I can't keep it up. It's impossible. We are reaching a breaking point and it's coming fast and furiously regardless of if I want it to or not. Balls are about to drop, I just have to make sure they are the appropriate ones.

Regardless, I won't be sick forever, in fact, I'm getting over it...have a wonderful husband, a great family, a first professional season, a huge surge in athletes who I'm so excited about each of their upcoming years, some great nutrition clients and a TV show that will air - eventually - someday (MTV Made - I want to be a triathlete for those of you just starting this journey).

I could be scrooge, but I think I'll just think of all those things and be happy it's not March... so chill the freak out Kim.

This season is one of my favorite and seeing friends and family, and retaining my sanity, is so very important to me, so I'm truly thankful for everything and everyone in my big full crazy life.

Thanks to those of you who have spent this year with me. Thank you for your patience, your love, your support and your gift of sharing my laughter, trials and tribulations (of which there has been plenty of both).

It's a Good Life... and I am Thankful. Merry Christmas to all and Happy Holidays my friends :)

3Go Magazine Article - The Full Story

2011-12-12T20:56:00.007-08:00

In a few days / weeks / I'm not really sure, an article will be coming out on a website called 3Go that chronicles five us of ladies of the 30-34 making the move to the professional ranks in 2012. I felt incredible privileged to even get the opportunity to participate in the article among such a talented group. As I read the final article draft (which was pretty awesome by the way! Great job Jordan!), one thing seems to be consistent, these ladies are not only smart and talented, but relentlessly driven and at the same time, humble and realistic about this next step. Not one of us have some idea of grandeur or that we'll be running down the unbelievable Miss Wellington any time soon. However, don't doubt it for one minute, these girls are ready to put it on the line and race their hearts out.. for all the right reasons.

Since only a very small portion of my comments are actually shared in the article, I decided that I would share the rest of my answers here so that you could see some of the thoughts behind my decision etc. It was a little strange and scary to put all of it down on paper (or on computer I guess), but I was so glad this article actually forced me to write it down and really give all of my answers some real thought. It was fun, but it was really hard at the same time. The questions were tough and thought provoking and the answers weren't cut and dry.

Hopefully, you can find a few things you relate to in here and most of all, just get a little laugh. I can't help who I am.. I'm me.. and that's that.

Thanks for reading & let me know what you think!

“Going Pro” article – questionnaire for new pros

Name: Kim Schwabenbauer

Age: 32

Occupation: Registered Dietitian, USA Triathlon Coach, Owner of Fuel Your Passion, LLC Sports Nutrition Counseling & Endurance Coaching

Where do you live?: Pittsburgh, PA

How did you get your start in triathlon?

I started in triathlon as a result of being a runner for many years and wanting to take on another challenge. Beth Shutt, a good friend and fellow Penn State Cross-Country teammate, had shared with me that she had begun doing triathlons the previous year and really enjoyed the three sport disciplines vs. just being a runner (which we did all through college). On a work trip to the Big Island, I saw the sign for the Ironman World Championship starting line and I said to my husband, “I’m going to do that race one day!” He suggested that maybe I should start with a shorter triathlon first. From breast-stroking my first triathlon swim to three years later standing at start of the Ironman World Championships in 2008 grinning from ear to ear, my first dream in triathlon had come true.

What’s your athletic background?

I came from strictly a running background. A cross-county / track athlete in high school and college, I loved running and it was almost born and bred in our family to be runners. My Mother, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, at one point or another, all of us have been runners and taken on local races up to the marathon distance. After marginal success in high-school, I never thought I could run at the college level, especially after being accepted to Penn State University, a division one program. After completing my freshman year, I called the coach of the cross-country team and asked about walking onto the team. I tried out, and spent the next four years having some of the best experiences of my life with those girls, including Beth. I graduated as a team captain and top scorer for the traveling team. After doing the Boston Marathon in 2005, it was time for a new gig. The rest is history.

What’s your strongest discipline?

I would definitely say running. It’s my background and my passion. I’m learning to love the other two slowly, and biking has brought a whole new world of spending time with friends and acquaintances out on 6 hour rides seeing the countryside. I love the freedom biking provides to see so much ground and really get to know people. Swimming, well, we have our days where we are friends, and then our days where we are not.

Which discipline do you think needs most improvement now that you’re joining the pro field? How do you plan to tackle this?

Oh, that's easy swim definitely needs the most work. I’ve had Ironman swims under an hour (IM Cozumel 2010, which I’m pretty sure was with a big current!), but I don’t seem to be consistent and when the water gets rough I really seem to lose focus and not swim nearly as well. I have a feeling it will be a very lonely experience on the bike if I don’t improve this area and talk about racing from behind! It’s much more fun and more motivating to be in the mix. I plan to swim 4 to 5 times a week at a minimum to really improve on this discipline next year. I’m also doing some video analysis with my coach next month in Colorado Springs, hoping to figure out where some of the issues may be in my technique. Hopefully, that will bring about a better and more consistent swim.

What made you decide to “go pro”?

I decided to turn pro for many different reasons. Just a few of those reasons relate to my drive and determination to compete at the highest level possible. After winning two amateur titles at the IM distance, I had a feeling with some more training I may be able to improve my times, and although it might be a tough process to get on the pro podium, I’m willing to put in the time and take the risk. I believe progress takes risks and I’m willing to take those risks as long as I keep the right prospective on my life, what’s important and why I am making this move. Our strongest athletic years are in our 30’s and I’m 32, so I’m not getting any younger. If I would ever like to have a family (and I would), now is the time to take this chance and see what these next few years bring.

Will racing as a pro change how you plan your season? If so, how?

Certainly, the flexibility that pro’s have in terms of planning their race season is a nice part of this process. You’re able to plan an “A” schedule and then also a “B” or even “C” possible schedule if things don’t go as planned or there are certain goals that aren’t being met. The new point system that the WTC has put into place certainly may be a driving factor in subsequent years. For now, I’m choosing races that will suit my particular strengths, are economically feasible, and that will give me some good experience next year as I learn about the different nuances of racing in a pro field vs. an amateur field. I’m taking a very hard look at the Rev 3 races as well because of some of the great experiences I’ve had with them as an amateur. I’ll race more, I’ll race often and I hope that my body will adjust to the heavier training and racing load this upcoming year that being a pro requires.

What do you expect to be the challenges of competing in the pro field?

I’ve done my homework on some of the challenges of competing in the pro field and I feel a bit more prepared mentally to face those than I would be otherwise. Some of my friends and mentors in this sport have talked about the challenges of racing alone for much of the race and still pushing yourself to your own potential limits. I know that when I get on the bike it can be a challenge coming from the back if you don’t have a good swim. I’m hoping to see my swim times improve, but until then, I think it will be a bit of an adjustment! At the amateur level I was used to being around other competitors and had the confidence that I could, and would, possibly catch them if I raced my race and did my best. In the pro race, there certainly will be competitors out of reach of my current ability and I’ll have to adjust to that as well. I think this race strategy will be more about focusing on what I can improve about my race for a year or so and hopefully at that point, be more competitive / put the pieces together to have “that dream race” again as a pro. I’m sure there will be plenty of races that will not come together and you have to keep your expectations / goals and reasons for doing the sport in check so that you can continue to improve throughout the process. I feel pretty darn honored just to have the option to make the choice and to line up against some of those people whom I feel are incredible athletes, but more importantly incredible women, well, that’s a huge bonus. I don’t think I’ll ever regret taking this chance and learning more about myself and the other amazing women in this sport.

What will you not miss about being an amateur?

I will not miss the mass swim starts that were required to compete at the Ironman as an amateur. Really! I won’t miss them one bit. However, I’ve heard there is plenty of beating around that goes on during the pro race as well and I’m sure I’ll still come out bumped and bruised just like I did as an amateur! Of course, I will also not miss having to sign up an entire year in advance for races that I want to attend as an amateur either. It’s so very hard to plan out your life for an entire year around one event. We’ve all been doing it for years so we know that’s what it takes, but it will be nice to have a bit more flexibility and adjust for injury, training blocks, goals and life in general.

What concerns you most about your decision to race as a pro?

What concerns me most about my decision to race as a pro is having the time to train to put myself at a level where I have the opportunity to be competitive at this level of the sport without sacrificing the time with my family, friends and having the stable income needed to still pay bills, money for groceries, travel, etc. This is the major issue as I see it with all of the professionals in our sport. This is not professional golf people. You don’t win one title and have enough to live on for a year. At most, if you place top five in our sport you have enough to cover your trip costs and a bit left over to live. Since triathlon isn’t a main stream sport, we have to come up with those ideas for being innovative and be willing to take calculated risks to have the funds needed to be in the sport while still having the time required to train 25+ hours per week. I’m willing to make personal sacrifices on some fronts, such as living a little leaner etc., but not on others like spending time with my family etc. Keeping this balance is what worries me the most and making sure I maintain it while being happy with the lifestyle this change will require.

How will your training change in the coming year as you prepare for your first season as a pro?

Training for my first pro season definitely is exciting and will require some additional time spent on all three disciplines. I also am really trying to identify some underlying strength issues such as imbalances etc. because as the volume increases, those little imbalances have the potential to become big problems. I’m working with someone to address those BEFORE the season really gets started and will spend the next few months doing a bit more strength training than I would have in years past. In addition, my power on the bike is something I struggle with being a smaller athlete, so I’m doing some cross-fit and other supplemental training to address those issues and hopefully, improve my power on the bike. Lastly, I’m sure my weekly volume will increase and if things work out the way I am hoping they do, I’ll have a bit more time to focus on training vs. balancing 40 hours per week of working + training + life. We’ll see – that’s TBD still!

What has been your favorite/most memorable triathlon experience to date?

Well, this is a tough one, it might be a tie. One of most memorable triathlon experience to date was having a breakthrough race at Ironman Cozumel in 2010 after breaking my collarbone into pieces exactly one year before at the Half Ironman World Championships and spending the first part of 2010 in a sling not able to do much training. It had been a really tough process and I found myself rather depressed and unsure of myself, my ability or even my next steps in the sport (if any) at times during that recovery. However, as I regained my confidence slowly, I started to believe a good race in Cozumel was possible, but it would take having a day. I was blessed to have that day and it all came together. It was bitter sweet to say the least.

The other was probably finishing Ironman Lake Placid this year. It had been a really challenging month, I was filming for MTV for their show “MADE, I want to be a triathlete” and I was running low on sleep, training and sanity prior to the race. Branden, the 16 yr old athlete I was working with to do the Pittsburgh Triathlon in a 3 week period, was coming from Pittsburgh to Lake Placid to see the race as his first triathlon. There were so many logistics to work out with the film crew and producers that I barely even got to think about the race. I was pretty worried based on my lack of training consistency leading up to the race that I would even have a decent race, let alone do well. At some point, I let it all go and just decided to pray about it and see what happened. As the day unfolded I went from 45^th in the swim, to 4^th off the bike to 1^st female amateur at the finish. Just knowing that Branden, my family, my team members from Ballou Skies, our charity team and Kyle, my husband, were at the finish and they knew how trying it had all been just made it so sweet to cross that finish line. Kyle and his Mom were right there to hug me, as was Branden and the whole film crew. It was surreal to have them there in the finish and I was happy beyond words. It felt like a dream. I was so thankful everything worked out – sometimes you have to let it go and just trust and I know that was a lesson I will not soon forget.

What question(s) do you wish I had asked you? And what is your response?

Question: What has the response been among your family / friends / others / other athletes to this decision?

The response has been mixed, mostly supportive, but also not quite what I expected. As always, going against what people consider a “main stream” type of life has its challenges. I think it’s difficult for some people to accept that your goals and dreams aren’t the same as theirs, or maybe aren’t the same as theirs right now anyway. Of course, there are those in my life who know me well and are 110% supportive in every way possible and I’m thankful beyond words for those people. Others, well, they don’t even acknowledge the difference between competing at this new level which is fine too. It certainly never stopped me before :)

Fit Squared

2011-12-07T19:08:00.002-08:00

I'm fighting..

I'll have you know I'm fighting tooth and nail.

One slow bit at a time, I'm clawing my way back to health. It isn't through complete rest (like it should be, or that I wish it would be per say)! Instead, I'm still working my butt off, traveling for work and just fighting.. drinking till I'm all out sprinting to the restroom, peeing like a pregnant lady, attempting to eat health, sleep somewhat enough and take my antibiotics. This is me vs. the sickness.. and I'm attempting to beat it's ..... well.... you know.

It's a tricky bugger.. it won't back down.. but you know what.. I'm gonna stand my ground too. I'm getting there.. slowly but surely, and in the end.. I'm taking it down to china town. I can't WAIT to get better. Like want to throw a small party in my own honor kind of can't wait. O well.. We do what we can.

In the mean time, I'm trying to keep my head above water, get my work down.. attempt to work out (a little) and just make it. Sometimes, that's all we can do. So, that's what I've been doing!

I DID want to share one picture (because that's all I have, because, consequently, in the mix of all this sickness I decided to wash my phone in the washer). Yeah, I know.. I could just wipe it down, but what the hey.... why not just chuck a $100 deductible down the toilet and give it a good cleaning you know!! So, that's where all of my pictures went.

When I heard Top Gear was doing Retul fits I was just super excited. I had heard so much about the accuracy and the fact that you could actually measure the angles with LOAD on the pedals while you were riding. I couldn't WAIT to get this done. It was an awesome experience to have the staff at Top Gear (well, Jake, the fitter) take a look at EVERYTHING that was specific to me. He had me take off my shoes and took a look at my ankles, arches and then he even measured flexibility on a massage table and use those measurements in the fit as well. It was just fun! The best part was I KNEW without a shadow of a doubt, not only would I feel better, but I would be more aero in the end. It was a really cool experience and even though it's expensive, I would HIGHLY recommend it. Considering how much time we spend on the dang bike, it's worth it to make sure you can breath, and breath well, and also spend time on the bike without hurting your back etc.

By the time I finished, I really did feel so much better, so much more stretched out!! It just makes me excited about the year and about the amount of time I'm going to be spending on the bike!

When I get more pictures (from Don, the owner of Top Gear who took them), I'll post those. If you have any questions about retul, check out their website or feel free to ask! It's amazing!

A BIG thanks to those guys, especially Jake, for a great fit and for checking on me after (we went a little TOO aero on the bars at first, and he checked in and then we adjusted a little back out where I was used to).

Have you retuled? What did you think? What else are you doing to get ready for 2012?

You Are An Ironman

2011-11-30T16:25:00.014-08:00

Well, sure as I said I haven't been sick yet this year, I should have known what was coming. I'm down and out. Yep, down.. down.. dowwwwnnn... and yep.. strait up out. No training, I can barely go to work. This week was supposed to be my first week back to training. Not so much. I'm not overly concerned, mostly just annoyed. I'm not going to dwell on it though, I have plenty to do and I am not wasting any time an energy on worrying. It's a great time of year to be sick and when I'm better, I'll get up and after it for 2012.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the four words in the title of this post. I'm not quite sure why. At times, I've had this entire blog post written in my head, but alas, I never have any paper around when that happens. It's usually either mid-third glass of wine or in some deep dark place on the trainer. Those are when the thoughts come to me. Those are when the thoughts form into phrases, sentences, ideas and form the shapes that come to be on this medium.

Regardless of the fact that I can't completely recall my exact sentiments, I'm going to try and put it down on paper anyway.

One of the things I'm most amazed about over the last five years has been the huge surge of people entering the sport of triathlon. It seems nothing can stop the growth of the sport many of us know and love. Not even the current state of our country's economics, seems to have any baring. Triathlon seems to be in it's own little bubble, shielded from the rest of the crises that so many think we have faced / are facing. Don't you think that's a little weird? I certainly do. Who are these people (oh wait, they're me) and where to they get their money (wait, me again). I've heard that the average income of an athlete doing the Ironman branded races is $160,000. Seriously?! Again, I refrain from using swear words, but really?? Let's just say, I don't have to worry about bringing that curve up any time soon.

Yet, the people come. They flock to Ironman like white on rice. Ironman Florida 2012 sells out in 12 minutes. People can't wait to slap down their $600 and press enter. Trust, me, I'm one of those too! It's like disposable cash is not even a second thought. Yet, in my heart, I know it is for the majority of us. It's just that something else is outweighing that, out prioritizing.

What is it, friends, that has created this driving force in our population...this need to do something so big and so monumental??! I have more than one athlete these days let me know that they will be doing their first __insert triathlon distance___ in the preparation to do an Ironman. This is usually the same person that has done less than 7 actual triathlons in their life. I'm not upset about it at all. In fact, I'm not even excluding myself from this proposition. I've stated many a time on this blog that I signed up for Ironman Lake Placid in 2008 before I had even done a 70.3 distance race, half the distance of the full. Granted, I didn't do it, but I almost did!

Do you want to know my theory? Well, you don't have a choice really - because it's my blog, and I'm able to say what I want. PEOPLE WANT TO BE CHALLENGED.

There. I said it.

Have you noticed that sometimes we seem to have gone so far the other way, telling each other that everything is ok.. it's fine to not make your goals happen, it's perfectly normal to feel this way, or that way or let go of our dreams to stay somewhere safer.. well, that's just fine honey. Let's be honest, the world has gotten a little soft. We've become a land of suit wearing, socially acceptable sheep in some ways that has found the norm to be not only somewhat comfortable and acceptable, but I would go as far as to say that leading a life with challenge has been rumored to be silly or unacceptable at times.

What I believe is that there is a whole under ground class of us, wearing out suits and ties, our coordinated scarves that feels deep, so very deep, within our hearts that with every single predictable non-challenging day we die a little inside. The same group that is secretly searching for something...no idea what.. but something. We catch a glimpse of it when we watch a TV show where someone does something seemingly so impossible, so far fetched, yet so amazing... it brings us to tears. All of the sudden, we wonder where our life has gone, where our dreams have gone and what could possibly take us out of this current day in day out grind that we are living.

That's where 140.6 miles comes in.

It might have started with a late December day.. when you catch it on TV. The sweat running down peoples faces, the grimaces of pain, the sun setting behind those out on the Queen K. It may be our first encounter with the fact that for some people, life's success isn't measured by money, or power, or materialistic things. In fact, these people are PAYING to be out there for miles on end, feet covered in blisters, sun beating down on their backs, from what I understand. Really? Paying?? You mean they chose this?? On purpose?

Why yes. Not only did they chose it. They prepared for it, with plenty of mornings that started before 5:00am, with sweat, blood, tears, bike crashes, time away from family, churning out hours of swimming, biking and running...most likely for more than a year. They dreamed about hearing those words "YOU ARE AN IRONMAN" heck - they even hired someone to help them get there, a coach of sorts. When people see their first Ironman in Hawaii on TV, they never seem to forget it. In fact, I've met many a person who have no idea that there even is another Ironman other than this race. No matter when or why I end up telling them about triathlon, their first question is, without a shadow of a doubt:

"Have you done that one race, that Ironman, in Hawaii?"

It makes an impression to say the least. I believe 140.6 miles, or any race of challenge is more than just a race. I always have. Look at the explosion of warrior dashes and Tough Mudders all over the country, the world.

I believe these races are symbolic of our life, that we won't be caged and that we won't be beat down by the rat race that sometimes becomes our lives. People want to feel intense pain, intense joy and go through all the emotions that the day brings because frankly, it reminds us we're alive.. living here on earth...that we are human and that a day as long, and this challenging, requires mental gymnastics that we haven't yet known until we were in the thick of it. Somehow that's what makes it all worth it though, and keeps us coming back for more time and time again.

I just watched the movie Serendipity and one of my favorite quotes was:

"You know, the Greeks didn't write Obituaries. They only asked one question after a man died "Did he have passion?"

Don't you think that says something. Don't you think we run the risk of losing it as we get older, and responsibilities come and the world requires a certain "standard" of each one of us? I'm all for responsibility and all, but come on... who said it had to be quite like what we've come to today.

People assume that passion will come to them like a flash flood, overwhelming them with a sense of vitality and commitment to purpose. I don't believe it's like that exactly. I think passion develops slowly and purposefully. That it requires you take time and breathe in and out and consider the unique life and activities that have meaning to you, and you only. Passion doesn't seek you out my friend, rather YOU discover it via a proactive pursuit of things that are interesting and challenging to you - whatever that may be.

My main reason for this post is that it's not about hearing the words "YOU ARE AN IRONMAN" Sure, those words have significance to me, but it's not about those words or "being" any one thing. It's about what that thing is for you.. that we're all trying to break out like a rash and discover. I just want to tell you that settling is easy, it's the contrary that is not. Just explore it.. just give it a little time.. just nurture it for one second be open to what comes. You don't have to do an Ironman, but just don't be afraid to see what comes when you let that spark of passion into your heart.

I'll leave you with this in this long blog that is just well, way to looonngg:

John Travers Obituary

It was written while he was living and it reminded him of the "why" of all of this. It's an interesting concept to write our obituary before we're actually gone. This one is pretty dang impressive to me and that's why I love it.

Trager secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh.. but rather, it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. Asked about the loss of his dear friend. Dean Kansku, the Pulitzer Prize-winning author and executive editor of the New York Times, described Johnathan as a changed man in the last days of his life. "Things were never clearer for him" Kansku noted. Ultimately, Johnathan concluded that if we are to life life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatum" or what we currently refer to as... destiny.

A tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite sublime plan. Most of all, I just don't want to be afraid. I don't think fear has any place in this plan. I have no idea what the next years hold.. I don't know what that plan is my friends, not yet..

but I can't wait to find out. I hope you can't either :)

Thankfulness

2011-11-28T18:30:00.013-08:00

I always think about Thankfulness more around this time of year. Sure, I think about it other times, but around the Holidays I often find myself a cross between sentimental, happy and sometimes just plain teary eyed. I'm not sure if its the lights, the thoughts of the year(s) past or just how amazing my friends and family are, but I can't help but smile. Sure, there's plenty of work to go around both on the weekdays and the weekends keeping me super busy and wondering how I'm going to get it all done, but it never ceases to amaze me how people come together around this time and take a minute to tell each other what they mean to one another. It's pretty dang cool.

In no particular order, I'm thankful for the following:

Turkey and Stuffing
Christmas Lights
My friends
Family
Christmas cards
Children (not mine, just in general :)
Pie
Ice cream
Warm fuzzy blankets
Good music to jam to / sing at the top of my lungs in the shower
Karaoke
Learning new things
New challenges
Scary stuff because it challenges us and makes us stronger
Movies
Petting dogs
My athletes
Our country
Opportunities I never even dreamed of happening
All the good stuff yet to come that I don't even know about yet

Two weekends ago I was fortunate to attend my sister-in-law's 30th Birthday Party. It was A-LOT of fun.. We had a blast and she entitled it "From the 20's to the 30's" so we had a 20's theme! It was at a speakeasy bar which was the perfect setting. I actually really like dressing up and I had such a good time just meeting her friends and hanging out with our family. Plus, I got to wear a Banana Republic dress that hadn't been broken out in a while and a feather - how can you not have fun when you get to wear a cool head thing (which ended up being WAY too tight and I had lines on my head for like a day after, but that's another story)! So, enjoy the pictures & I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving Holiday!

What are you thankful for this season??

Beating the Bug

2011-11-18T12:33:00.007-08:00

I don't know about you, but I HATE getting sick... like with a passion. When I was young I seemed to be extremely vulnerable to illness. My Mother is at least partially responsible for this fact considering that she pumped me full of antibiotics every single chance she saw the remote possibility of a cold coming on. Bless her heart, she didn't want me to have to deal with being sick. By the time I hit my late teens, what I got out of all of those antibiotics was a very weak immune system. Even in my early twenties at college etc., I remember being sick ALL-THE-TIME. I would miss one night of sleep and BAM, commence sore throat and stuffy nose.

As an athlete, and a coach, things have certainly evolved over the years. One of the biggest things I realized early in this triathlon game is consistency is king. You can be a more talented athlete, but if you aren't consistent, then guess what, someone else can and will beat you to the finish (most of the time). The longer the race, the more important consistency becomes. Once I realized this, I have TRIED to be on it like white on rice. Honestly, I don't think I'm all that talented. I just work really really hard at being consistent and even then, I sometimes can't pull it off because of work or other family commitments. That's life!

One of the biggest interrupters I've found, both in my own training and the training of my athletes, is getting sick. One minute your getting stronger, seeing gains in fitness, feeling good about your training and the next you are down and out, stuck on the couch for three days watching daytime soaps while wearing your snuggie (no really, tell me you don't have one of those, they DO look comfortable though!).

I have a proclamation to make..and trust me kids, it's a doozy (for me anyway).

It is November, almost the end of November, and I have YET to get sick THIS YEAR.

That's right, in 2011 I have yet to be knocked down and out. Sure, I've had a touch of something coming on here or there, but nothing has taken me out of the training or work game.

The biggest difference for this, in my personal opinion, attention to detail and nutrition.

Sure, I've stopped taking antibiotics at the drop of a hat too, but I've also become one of those crazy hand-washing ladies etc. I've also really paid attention to my body and the second I've felt something coming on I've made changes to my life to give my immune system the best possible chance of kicking it.

So, here are a few helpful hints to help you also beat the biggest of bugs this time of year (who wants to be sick over the Holidays - yuck) and to have your best, most consistent season ever in 2012!!

Wash your hands, not just for a second, but for a full 60-90 seconds. Yes, it's a long time and with SOAP. I like Dial, but a good hand soap and scrubbing will do. Do it well and do it often!

Drink TONS of water. Make it your business to know how much you've drank per day. Use a bottle with lines so you know in ounces. Viruses have more trouble penetrating your mucus membranes if they are hydrated and slippery!

When you start feeling something come on, take extra Vitamin C and I also take Ecaanaisia well. Vitamin C is water soluble so the worst that can happen is you just urinate it right out.

If you start to have congestion, flush out your sinuses immediately with a Nedi-Pot. It took me YEARS to break down and do this, but I am not kidding you - it works! It took care of my sinus issues more than once this year. If you nip it in the bud, then it can't drain into your throat and chest causing more issues. It's strange, but just do it.

Eat smart: five to nine fruits and vegetable servings daily. Make one high in vitamin C. Vitamin E in nuts and seeds also helps build immunity.

Get enough sleep. Every time I would feel something coming on I would try to sleep at LEAST 9 hours for two nights in a row. That usually did the trick!

Find ways to reduce stress – perhaps through physical activity, meditation or simply "time out" from stressors.

Stay active IF the symptoms are above the neck, if they are below, then take some rest.

Take the day off. That simple. ONE day off will sometimes be enough that you're back at it the next day or the day after rather than losing a week of workouts. You can ask my coach, it was probably two or three times this year I called him and said, "something is off with my body, I'm taking today off and I'll evaluate tomorrow." He agrees with this philosophy 110%.

Eat more yogurt with natural probiotics! Keeping your gut healthy is an important part to maintaining immunity!!

Finally, in terms of nutrition, several nutrients may play a key role: beta carotene in deep-yellow fruits and veggies and dark-green leafy greens; vitamin B6 in whole grains, legumes, chicken and pork; vitamin C in citrus fruit, berries, melon, tomatoes and broccoli; vitamin E in wheat germ and nuts; protein in dairy foods, meat, poultry, fish and legumes; selenium in meat and seafood; zinc in beef and seafood.

Try to have a balanced diet that includes lots of color and eat WHOLE foods whenever possible.

A few simple steps can save you hours of laying on the couch being grumpy, wishing you were outside swimming, biking or running!

Here's to happy / healthy training in 2012!

I Heart The Off Season

2011-11-15T10:01:00.006-08:00

Sorry for the long time no post! Just because I haven't been training like a mad women, doesn't mean I haven't been busy!! It's been a wonderful couple of weeks and getting ready for 2012 is in full swing, both for myself, and for the amazing athletes I will be working with next year. I have an exciting group from people who are coming off the couch to tackle their first triathlons to people who are attempting to qualify for the big dance. It's a great group that will challenge me and that I can't wait to figure out each individual athlete, what makes them work, their metabolism and how we can pull the very best from each of them. It's a great time to be a coach!

With that said, there have been some things I love about the off-season. Just a few of those are as follows:

Hot Yoga (I go to Amazing Yoga, which I love, but there are many great places)
Cross-Fit / Raw Training (which is totally kicking my hiney and making me sore!)
Wine (yes, vino is good and it's nice to have a little here and there and polypenols are a great antioxidant!)
Raising money for Ballou Skies at our Champions Gala last week filled with great food, great friends and awesome updates on how the research we are supporting is changing lives for the better!
Seeing lots of Kyle
No set workouts
Catching up with friends
Working so very hard on my own business and getting it ready for 2012. I worked 17 hours over three days this weekend. It was busy, but it was worth it.
Planning next season (Race Plan "A" has been established and I will unveil it very soon! So excited)
Thinking about my strengths and weaknesses as an athlete.
Getting my bike Retul fitted at Top Gear Bicycle Shop next week
Flying out to Colorado Springs in December to see my coach and do video analysis / work on some of my weaknesses (aka SWIMMING)
Looking forward to the Holidays! Who else can't wait!!?? I LOVE this time of year!

It's been a nice break and I think that break will be over on December 1st if I'm feeling good and ready. I think I will be and I'm actually getting excited to be back to training. It's hard to believe last year at this time I was about to do my final Ironman of the season in TWO more weeks over Thanksgiving!

What are YOU loving about the off season??

The Off Season

2011-11-05T14:21:00.002-07:00

When my friend Chad told me that he saw my picture on the WTC release of the new lottery program on Xtri, I was really surprised. Why they chose this picture, I'll never know. I remember it vividly in my mind, but it was hard to see through the tears at the time. Regardless, I had an immense sense of thankfulness and disappointment at the same time. It was the strangest feeling ever, but it was human, it was simple and it was racing. We take all of it, the good the bad, the emotional, we bring all of it with us.

I'm adjusting well to the off-season and I was so thankful for all of the comments I received on my last blog about turning pro. You all are so supportive and I'm thankful for each and every comment. I mean that from the bottom of my heart! I'm excited about next year and I'm just thankful to have the opportunity to start this next stage of my career.

The off-season is very confusing to many people. Because I am addicted to triathlon, I read plenty of articles even on this time. Sometimes they almost seem conflicting! One will say "make sure you stay active" and others will say "be sure to rest, put your feet up, take a real break!" It's hard to know what will work for an athlete in the off-season because we are all very different. The most important thing is to know yourself and your body. Do you recover fairly quickly during the season? What type of racing did you do - short course? long course? If you raced short course, only up to Olympic distance, you may not need as long of a break as some people who were pushing through two to three Ironmans this year. However, what is common to each athlete is the need to take a MENTAL break. The season is long, and grueling at times. I find it's not so much the WORKOUTS I need a break from, essentially, it's trying to fit everything in.

Some people only think of their weekly workout "LOAD" as volume. The way I've been taught, that is not truly the case. Your workout load encompasses

Volume + Intensity + Specificity + LIFE

Not just volume. All of these factors contribute to your fatigue level at the end of the season. Have you been mentally and physically working your hardest to balance things from January to November? Well, if so, then for heaven's sake, take a couple weeks off my friend! A couple weeks completely away from working out is a good thing, to let a few little nagging aches and pains heal up, give your body a break and of course, give your mind a rest too. After that, it seems generally agreed upon that you have to follow your heart for at least 2-4 weeks and take cues from your own physiology. Do you feel like working out? Do it! Keep the duration until 2 hrs and keep the intensity down - way down. Do some things you don't normally do - forget your watch / GPS / tracking device / crazy analytical self at home when you take a run! Watch the light dance on the leaves, take a walk, try a mountain bike or just take the day off if you feel like it!

For me, one to two days completely off has been working well and the rest of the days I've been doing a little something. So far, that something is mountain biking, spin class, elliptical, trail running or core exercises. Nothing too crazy. You'll notice there hasn't been any swimming in there - whooops! Well, I didn't feel like getting up at 5:00am.. so I didn't! I'm thinking about it this week.. maybe.. we'll see!

Just be sure to be smart and realize that no one wants to be a January champion. It's best to let your fitness go away a little (not completely - like a month off), and then start to build your plan with a focus on endurance / aerobic work and technique work when you are ready to come back for real.

Make sure you take this time - in the throws of May / June / July next year - you'll thank yourself!

It's Time...

2011-10-29T13:31:00.022-07:00

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it. - W.M. Lewis

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Whether it's staying over at a friend's house, or getting asked to prom, it's all about the search for a fun time, a time to make memories! Then you grow up, and life becomes more about being cautious. You could break a bone, or even worse, a heart. Somehow it starts to be more about paying bills, achieving what the world labels as "success" and about taking care of our "responsibilities". We're taught to weigh all of the factors, look before we leap and sometimes we don't even leap at all because we're worried there might not be anyone there to catch us.

There are all kinds of fears that can prevent us from making the leap. They are different for each one of us, but surprisingly, they are probably closer to each others than even we might think. Haven't you ever worried about all the what if's? You know.. What if

___insert your choice of worry here__

I disappoint someone I love, or worse, I disappoint myself

I can't do it

I'm too old

I'm not qualified

I'm not skilled enough

I get hurt

people make fun of me / laugh at me

my goals are silly

It's too late

I can't even get past the first step

You know exactly what I'm talking about. Each of us shares these same fears, these same issues that keep us from achieving all we are capable of in this life.

It reminds me of my senior year's Penn State's cross-country shirt. Each year we picked a shirt "theme" and it was very personal to each of the members and combined all of our individual goals into one saying. It was always a struggle to choose. Each year, after all the debate, we would arrive at a our theme, victorious as one unified whole... ready to take on the season ahead.

My senior year the shirt theme was "It's Time." When I started we were a band of misfits, pulled together as everything from walk-on athletes to those recovering from long standing injuries. We didn't have any chance of doing anything in the Big Ten, but as the years went on we bonded together. Over time we became strong and finally were becoming a team to be reckoned with when we toed the line. It was our season, our time to finally shine, our decision to put it out there.. it had been a long time coming...but "our time" was finally here.

What allowed us to finally put that on the shirt was the same thing that allowed us to overcome all of the "What if's" listed above. We had been through trials and tribulations, injury, family issues, and even coming in dead last to finally becoming the team we were today, standing tall and together. Alone, we were nothing... but together, we were unstoppable. It gave us confidence and when any one person had doubts, we quickly erased them from each others minds with encouraging words and affirmations of our strength and ability not to let each other fall.

The sum was always stronger than the parts. Though it wasn't the season we'd hoped for in the end, I never regretted learning the valuable lessons I had come to see come to fruition in college.

Triathlon is a very individual sport in some ways and in other ways, that couldn't be farther from the truth. It takes a village to raise an Ironman, and I truly believe that. I don't know if you met my family, my group of friends and extended friends, my fellow bloggers.. but let me tell you..

I couldn't do this alone if I tried (and I'm pretty sure 100% of YOU would say the exact same thing).

We all have those fears, me included, but when I go to take the leap I always know they will be there, my safety net, to catch me should I start to fall.

That's where the freedom comes in.. to overcome those fears and to stand up against them. The goal is to not let them paralyze you, but instead to take control of each one and ward it off with the reason why it won't be the thing that stops you. When you do this successfully, you in turn teach yourself and will yourself to make the commitment to stand up once again and take the leap (whatever leap you want).

With that said, I'm ready to make the leap again. It's Time my friends. Do I feel 100% ready, well, not necessarily...but that doesn't change the fact that I'm going to do it anyway. Do I have fears...heck YEAH! Having fears is a given, but I have huge support system and that makes me ready to combat them and do it anyway.

In 2012 I will be competing as a professional triathlete. There I said it!!

I'm not doing it for the money, obviously :) Ha. Gosh knows there isn't much of that in the sport! I've taken a long time to look at my reasons and they have come back the same time and time again. I don't want to have any regrets about my life, so I've given this little adventure some rules of my own so that I can keep my perspective. I've talked to many other professionals in our sport who are not only realistic about why they do it, but that have been willing to offer advice and help every step of the way. There is no better time than the present, and the present is right now baby!

I have some big questions of my own next year. Can I finally learn to swim (#1), Can I figure out a way to bike closer to 5:10-5:15 for 112 miles? (#2), Can I run faster than 3:17 off the bike in an Ironman (#3)? So, here's to 2012 and seeing what is possible! Life is about so many things for me including helping others, having so much fun and seeing just where this next part of my journey will take me.

Thank you to my family, friends, fellow bloggers & tri friends, sponsors and of course, to Kyle,

my number one supporter and the one who is there for me in thick and thin.. You all have been with me every step of the way so far, and I know I'll need a lot more of that great support over the next year!! I love you all and I appreciate everything you do for me!!

Cheers to taking the leap in 2012!!

The Places You Can Go...

2011-10-27T12:52:00.014-07:00

Oh the places my sports life has taken me over the years. I was just thinking about my career the other day and I realized at this point it is about 17+ years and counting since I started competing. It's been everything from running around a cross-country course in bun-huggers in high school, as we sometimes called them, competing as an athlete at Big Tens all over the country in college, to traveling all over the world doing triathlons after literally teaching my self to swim in 2005.

It hasn't been an easy road at times, but it's been more fun than I would have ever imagined. Oh the people I've met, the places I've gotten to go and the experiences I've had... I'm just so utterly grateful for each and every one of them.

From not sleeping for what seemed like weeks at a time in college (I had some sort of serious anxiety issues back then, and still sometimes now!), to now being a two time Ironman World Championship finisher. Life sure is a blessing!!

We found this guy pictured above on a beach while we were exploring and I named him "Brian" because he looked like a Brian to me!

Kyle and I hung out after the race and just had fun.. in this picture we had just woken up after napping under a tree on the beach.

I just couldn't think of anything else except for how even when races don't go the way we planned, it's just never a bad day to finish and Ironman.. standing and for a good cause like Ballou Skies.

These other pictures are just some of the other places my life has taken me.. including this fun picture that my Mom finally sent me of us doing a 10k when I visited her over Easter. She hadn't run competitively in years (no road races since back in the day!) and I said I would run the whole thing with her and low and behold the women is just as stubborn as I am :) She wanted to walk, but just wouldn't give in even though she really hadn't been running that far lately. I was so very proud of her!! I guess this competitive spirit may be somewhat nature AND nuture!!!

Lastly, I've been spending some great time with my girls, having fun and taking a break from sport lately. I almost had a completely different ending to this season.. but it ended up not working out.. so, I'm just dealing with some things in my own way.. and getting used to the idea that it really is over for 2011. It's taken some time to let it rest that way, but it is, and you know what.. I'm good :) Life is good :) and I am just beyond thankful for all the blessings of this year!!

How about you? What are you thankful for about 2011??

What Will You Do?

2011-10-23T13:29:00.009-07:00

It's that time of year.

You know what time I mean.. the time where many people's seasons are coming to a close and they are starting to think about next year. They are dreaming.. they are letting their bodies and minds take a break from "the grind." They are mountain biking, seeing friends, thanking family and their respective others for supporting them for one more year. They're wondering what could have made the year different, better.. what gave them the edge.. what worked.. what didn't.

They're wondering.. examining, analyzing and crunching the numbers.

It's an exciting time of year. I love it. The leaves are changing and the air has a chill in it when I set out to run in the early morning. You wear more layers, you watch the world wake up as the darkness turns to light. You feel a little regrowth.. and you start planning, races, training trips and saving for that new "___" insert any piece of triathlon equipment because, let's be honest, they are all expensive :)

Plenty of questions come up and I think questions are great. Question everything. If your coach or dietitian says they have all the answers, be afraid, very afraid. Two of my friends were getting their coaching certification this weekend and I couldn't help but think of my certification weekend and how much I've learned since then (and how very far I still have to go!). The best part is that as I'm constantly learning and growing, its a subject I'm completely crazy about. I'm still like a sponge, soaking up every last bit of knowledge I can gain from other coaches, from athlete's experiences on the race course, and from successes and sometimes even more so from not so successes!

I am a life long learner in this area. So now it's time for me to ask the questions to each of you..

What will you do this upcoming season to improve, to have a different outcome or to enjoy the balance of training and life even more? What are you willing to sacrifice or do differently to get that outcome? How do you see yourself in that first race of the season next year? What about the last race? How far will you have come not just physically, but in your life-balance? What will make the difference? What will give you strength, confidence and the chance to live your dreams?

Whatever it is, spend some time thinking about those things now. This sport starts and ends with those around you that help give you this time and lift you up to even just make it to start line. Make sure you thank them now..right now... give them a hug and show them by giving them time and love.

Start to plan.. think about it.... and plan some more. Be honest about the things that limited you, and addresses them. Was it nutrition? Was it consistency? Was it time? Was it late bed times?

Whatever it was, have an honest talk with yourself about those things and be realistic about them. Just know this.. it's not always the coaches fault :)

Don't be afraid to ask for help. Look around you, see who is a part of your life that could assist you once you've done your homework. Is it a seasoned tri veteran, a dietitian, a coach or a bike mechanic or even just one of your friends looking from the outside in.

Think about why you first started this journey and what you still want out of it? What makes it enjoyable, fun, exciting and new each time you put on your running / biking shoes...

Then go out there, and make it happen :)

What I DO Want to Remember About Hawaii!!

2011-10-20T13:26:00.014-07:00

Hawaii is gorgeous. Actually, it's not just gorgeous, its spectacularly untouched in parts, remains a mystery in others. It's a place where you are overwhelmed by the sights, smells and sounds that never enter your normal every day life.

It's the place you constantly see on Bree Wee's Blog of her swimming with dolphins or doing eating exotic fruit and you think in the dead of Pennsylvania winter - WHY CAN'T THAT BE ME!? Well, once the Ironman was over, the second half of the trip began and we had four glorious days to explore and see the island. It was just awesome. Our time started with a little party on Sunday night with some great friends and transitioned into kayaking, Kona Brewing (my favorite pizza and beer in the whole world - Try the Hefferveisen if you ever go there!) and some strait up R & R. I needed it, desperately! Kyle and Deb had been so very patient as I went through all of the pre-race motions, now it was there turn too to have fun and not worry about a "schedule" for the rest of our time.

Kayaking was my most favorite part of the trip. I had ALWAYS wanted to swim with dolphins....always, for as long as I can remember! When we picked up the Kayaks I heard that they had been seeing them in Kealakekua Bay I just about flipped! As we paddled out, I kept hoping and praying that we would see them!!!! Low and behold we saw a group of kayaks all huddled around this area and I heard the puff of a blow hole right beside me! I got so excited I started pulling off my life vest and shoes and bam! I was throwing the rope out of the kayak to Kyle to hold so I could bail!! It was time! It was my dream.. or as Kyle and I say.. whelp.. see ya later!

We spent at least 40 minutes with me diving down and taking a peek at them underwater. I watched them play and swim upside down. I watched the light bounce off of them and then sometimes they would jump right out of the water and spin in a circle before splashing back down (they were Spinner Dolphins). It was simply amazing.

Finally we made it over the island where you'll find Captain Cooks Memorial and instead of snorkeling, I just slept. Nap time has been missed and I finally, finally got a chance to just relax and forget about triathlon, Facebook, Blogs, Email, Work etc. for a little which was a much needed break.

It was a wonderful day with Kyle and Deb and a perfect way to spend part of our trip. I highly recommend it if you are ever in the area!! A special thanks to Kyle for making the arrangements and holding the rope and Deb for indulging my inner child as I yelled about how cool it was for like 20 minutes straight (oh and to the Spinner Dolphins who came out and made this girls day!!)

Alive and Kickin

2011-10-18T13:20:00.009-07:00

Well I'm back..

In more ways that one :)

I'm back in town, back in my nice bed, back to work :( and back to a little light training! I feel good, great in fact. I'm surprised how good I feel (besides the jetlag, which is literally, killing me!). Maybe that's what happens when you gingerly run the IM marathon leg because your butt and hamstring muscles won't move. Who knows!

This is a beautiful time of year to count your blessings, look around and be happy that you're able to run, able to breath fresh air and have friends and family around.

Kona reminded me of that big time. If I thought I had some nice notes and emails before, the aftermath of Kona brought on a whole new awesome, amazing, wonderful slew of them and I was once again reminded that it's not so much about places or times, but people who care about me and come along on this journey we call life. Sure, I put countless hours into Kona, too many to count. I visualized, and saved money and prayed.. all to prepare to have "that race" but it wasn't to be. I've accepted it, and I've moved on.

Let me tell you, one of the cooler things that has happened in awhile is that upon return I got this email:

Hi, my name is Griffin and I saw a video about you on youtube one day and was inspired right away. I am 13 and this was my first year in triathlons. I competed in 3 solo sprint triathlons and won the 0-15 male age-group in all 3. I still felt like i had slacked off a bit and when i looked at the national rankings on the USAT website i was determined to make it to the top of the list. For the past 2 weeks i have pushed myself in my workouts. I set 3 personal records, i ran 2 miles further than ever before, biked my loop 10 minutes faster than ever, and swam a mile in 25 minutes. You inspired me to work harder and showed that no goal is out of reach. Thank you.

Now that, was exciting. THAT got me excited and happy that I have an awesome husband who takes the time to document our adventures and create things that speak to people. THAT showed me that once again, this is not about me, it's about others.. helping them, inspiring them and giving them hope that their life can be better / healthier / more fulfilling if they take care of their bodies. I emailed Griffin back, and we have been corresponding ever since. Maybe he needs a coach - maybe I'll be coaching an Olympian someday! Who knows!

There is a song that talks about leaving a legacy. I try to ask myself what I want that to be for me.. yes, at the ripe old age of 32 this is what I am thinking about! I know, I'm a nut. I can't help it though.

When Steve Jobs passed away last week I thought of this quote from his graduation speech, which I think holds true for all of us:

I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself- "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

I've got to tell you, I completely agree.

I hope each of you find what you are searching for in this life and consider what kind of legacy what you're doing will bring. The more I think about all of this, the farther I realize I have to go.. but I don't think that's going to stop my from trying... yep.. I have not yet begun to fight :)

Have a great day! Go make something happen!!

Kona 2011 Afterthoughts...

2011-10-14T04:56:00.010-07:00

(note: This is not water, these are blisters)
I'm glad I wrote my race report right away. It was all pretty fresh right then and I think to revisit is later, would have just hurt. It still stings a little when I think about it. After every race, I tell my athletes to write down some things that went well, and some things they want to change for next time. This is just a part of the sport. It's best to do it when we are fresh (preferably with pictures too if it helps keep it at the forefront in your mind).

The thing about Ironman is that we don't just prepare for a week or even a month for an Ironman. We prepare for a year. How many races or events require somewhere around a year to seven months to get ready. Not many. That's probably why there aren't a ton of us that do this!

The other thing that is interesting is that triathlon continues to grow. What I've found...people like a challenge. Sometimes they reach this point in their life where things just aren't panning out the way they thought. They are in the middle of their years, sitting at a desk job all day, not feeling young active or anything remotely close to it. Maybe it was their friend that talked them into it. Maybe it was just waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night with the feeling that something has to give. Either way, I think it's a good thing. If they are lucky, the begin their journey right then and there. They start reading online, they figure out how to take the first step. It's not a huge step to a sprint, but it invigorates them, breathes life into them. They feel their first finish line that required not one, but THREE sports to get to it and they fall intensely in love with it.

Sometimes that's all it takes.

For those of us that have done this for awhile, we still remember our first times toeing the line. How scared we were, how crazy it felt to be grabbing this bike and jumping on! Oh and let us not forget, the SWIM for those of us who didn't grow up swimming.

Mistakes are a part of triathlon, and a part of life. If we are not making mistakes, we are not growing, and if we are not growing, then what the heck are we even doing here on this earth. However, it has also been said that repeating the same mistakes over and over again and expecting to get different results is the definition of insanity. I might be crazy, but insane, well, I like to THINK I am not.

I made a few grave errors in Kona and the thing about Kona is that it has no forgiveness. None. It's so harsh and so brutal that any mistake you make is magnified by 110%. In any other race, you might be able to bring things back around. There, it's a different story. It just burns more, wind whips you more, sun bakes you more, heat dehydrates you more and your mind seems to play with you more (at least for me in comparison to my other races).

Hot races are difficult for me.

There. I said it. Hi, my name is Kim and I am a MASSIVE sweater. If I am not SPOT ON with my nutrition, I might as well pack it up, walk off the course and tell everyone else to have a nice day. I cannot keep having this same talk about dehydration. Personally, I'm sick of it. St. Croix 2008, Clearwater 2009, Buffalo Springs Lake 2010 and now Kona 2011. One race per year I'm just botching it up. It impacts my race so greatly and I need to start really taking a look at what else I can do. Make no mistake, I mentally realize what's going on pre race and post race and my PLAN is sound.. but at the times during the race, when my salt gets low and I'm in the heat of competition, my decision making process is not "on" and that is why I'm making bad choices. If I have to practice switching from Infinite to Ironman perform half way through my long rides.. then I'll just have to do it. I kept thinking - no, Infinite will always taste good, my body will always be fine with it. You know what, sometimes you just have a day where your body wants to do something else. In that case, you better have a plan B and have practiced with it. That was precisely why I didn't switch in Kona, I hadn't practiced and I wasn't risking it. In hindsight, probably should have just switched because the end result wasn't what I wanted either.

Second though, sunscreen. I've always had really good luck with Kinesis sunscreen. For some reason this race, I disregarded that important fact. I just used whatever was available to me from people that morning pre-race and that was a huge mistake. Other sunscreens, even if they say "water and sweat proof" are not Ironman proof. Ironman is a different level and Kona is a WHOLE different level. You've got to take it seriously because one wrong decision could seriously impact your whole day.

I strait up started freaking out on the run. Besides the dehydration and then my back was killing me from my time on the bike, I was just feeling awful. Sapped of energy and just like my body was falling apart. By the time I got sunscreen on in T2 it was way too late. Missing it completely in T1 was a terrible idea. Even the upper half of my back would have saved me. Instead, I just rushed out and completely forgot since Kinesis is usually my back up and has saved me on a number of occasions.

In hindsight things are always clearer. They are more "DUH" what were you thinking? But the thing is, we all make mistakes, but these are two I really should know better. Little things, amplified by this race.

So, let's hold each other accountable shall we! Feel free to leave a comment about your big race boo-boo and I'll remind you before your next race to make a different decision (if you have a blog or we are friends on FB etc.). PLEASE do the same for me.. this sunburn is going to peel for days, probably twice, so that should help me remember for awhile.

Thanks for all your kind comments on my last blog. Wow.. I know some of you so well and you are always supportive, always amazing and caring and I appreciate it so much. Thank you.. I mean that.. thank you.

Kona 2011

2011-10-09T19:02:00.014-07:00

Where to begin! Let me first say that Kona is amazing. 100% strait up pure triathlon adrenaline rush amazing. If you ever have the chance to come here, not even for the Ironman, but just to come here, you should. The people are beyond wonderful, kind and willing to help, the town is beautiful, cute and has all the amenities of home, and the training is hot, has every kind of terrain you could want and the water is quite possibly the most beautiful in all the world (in my opinion). My experience this week has been filled with everything from people running around in their under ware, to speaking about coaching at the expo, to seeing my friends and of course, getting ready to race.

Pre-race here is always intense. It requires lots and lots of prep here. Much more than other races it seems. There's just a lot going on here PERIOD. People to see, blogger friends to meet (Marni, Libby!) and Pittsburgh had 8 athletes here so lots of group dinners etc. In addition, Ty and Ryan Ballou were here with us, so it made for a wonderful pre-race team dinner etc. Plus, my Ballou Skies girls and I had matching outfits for the under ware run which was way cool!

The race itself...well, it definitely wasn't the day I had planned or the day I was hoping for, that is for sure.

Note: This may (and I said MAY) be the shortest race report I have ever written.

The morning of the race went as planned, no issues. When I headed into the water I lined up far left due to my Ironman Lake Placid Panic attack and I wanted to be able to "get out" if things started to get dicey. When the cannon blew I found myself in a perfect position and I got out rather well swimming with a small group and moving right along. Everything was pretty great until at one point I looked over an entire group was swimming directly at me. YES, at me. NO idea how that happened. I guess whoever I was sighting off of wasn't doing that great of a job. Anyway, I promptly did an about face and tried to swim in the direction they were going! Finally we made it to the sailboat turn around and headed back toward home. The highlight was definitively seeing 10 dolphins right below us as the light broke through the water. I wanted to stay and look at them, and maybe I should have if I would have known what was in store for the rest of the day, but there was much work to be done. When I got out of the water I was very surprised to see 1:10 on the clock! Really!! I had been feeling like I was going much faster. I moved on, no sense in worrying about that now.

After forgetting sunscreen in T1 (remember that for later), I headed out on the bike optimistic and ready to race. The out and back through town is dicey and crazy. Men going way too fast for the narrow roads and just wall to wall people. I took it conservatively and tried to settle into my own pace / not crash. Finally, we were out on the queen K and I was feeling pretty good. I started my nutrition plan and was just steadily moving along. Sure, there were some packs, I just did my best not to get involved. Each time a marshal passed, I got a nod that everything I was doing was cool.

Cadence, check. Heart rate, check. Nutrition, check. I was moving right along. The wind picked up slightly about 30 miles in and then at 45 while we climbed up to Hawi... it hit. I was just floored by how progressively worst it got through the 50-60 mile section. At one point, I actually yelled out in frustration as I could barely keep the bike moving forward without pressure on the pedals. I got frustrated and out of sorts.. I stopped drinking and just held on for dear life. I figured it will all get better once I made the turn around, but by then, precious fluids and salt within those bottles had been missed. Bad conditions, bad decisions. I had a little under half a bottle left at the turn around which should have been gone by mile 60. When I replaced them I thought "I can turn this around, everything will be fine!" Then my bike got wings. Flying down at 34 miles per hour I didn't dare take my hands off the bars. Precious time I'm gaining I kept thinking, precious time! Now I was in the 68 mile range, still far from drinking on schedule. In trying to catch up, I finally got it down and switched, more than half and hour from schedule. Around 80 miles the head wind kicked in and I started to feel my glutes and hamstrings tightening, my power was going down with each stroke and I had a hard time sticking to my prescribed cadence. Things were going south and they were on the express train.

My second to last bottle was warm and each time I drank it, I started to gag. It was the last thing on earth I wanted to do was drink it, but I kept trying. Instead I focused on water, leaving me missing precious electrolytes.

As the wind and sun beat me down, I felt my back just cooking under the UV rays. I could see my skin turning deeper and deeper shades of red. At some point I started wondering if I had enough focus to make it back to Kona without crashing or falling off the bike. "Just get back," I kept saying to myself quietly. Thoughts of certain times and places were slowly falling away. At that point, I couldn't even mentally entertain the marathon... "Just get back Kim, you can do it, make it back!"

Finally, I pulled into town and made my way to transition. I was so happy to be in there I thought about staying. The volunteers rushed me out though and what the heck, I might as well try to run a marathon. I was so out of it I forgot my baggie with my own flavors of gels and extra salt right in the T2 bag. Nice Kim, nice.

Out on the run I started to feel a little better. I was clicking along at 7:30 pace. Humm.. maybe my body was fine! Maybe it was just "a bad patch" as we all have in ironman! Around mile 6 I started to notice my skin had little divots in it and they formed these strange lines..I got worried. Really worried. It was either dehydration or sun poisoning, or both. By the time I hit Palani hill around a little short of mile ten, I was in trouble. Kyle and his Mom were standing there on the edge of the road and I stopped. Our conversation went like this:

Kyle: Are you ok?

Kim: No, I'm not sure if something is really wrong or if I should keep going or what.. my skin looks weird, my glutes and hamstrings are really, really tight and I just don't feel well. Do you think I will hurt myself if I keep going??

Kyle: Well, it's the world championships, I don't think you should quit, but only you can make that call.

Kim: Ok.. well, I'm going to keep going if I can, might be a long day though just so you know.

So, I chipped away at the hill and temperature on the Queen K rose to 120+ degrees. I could feel the heat through my shoes. My muscles got progressively worst until I could no longer use them. My glutes were like rocks. I stopped to stretch and couldn't even bend over. It was a disaster. I was at mile 13. The thought of walking the rest of the marathon was inconceivable, so was the thought of running it. Every step meant pain, walking or running. After walking for about 5 minutes I determined that the faster I got back, the faster I could seek medical help, so away I shuffled.

The next miles were long and drawn out. One mile seemed to take forever. I saw friends, they encouraged me and the only thing I could think about was all the people checking for updates. There was only so much I could do, and this was it...Kyle and Deb were out there on the course and they knew by my gait things were bad, very bad. Kyle told me he loved me and to keep going, so I did. Slowly but surely, I swallowed my pride, got passed by everyone and their brother and just. kept. going.

Night started to fall and the temperature dropped. Running down Palani at mile 25 I heard Cathy and Teresa yell for me and I couldn't hold it in one more second. Tears started streaming down my face behind my glasses.

When I finally turned the corner, people were cheering for me by name and I gave a thumbs up. They didn't know anything about my day, but they knew I was finishing.. and that was my only goal from about mile 80 on. I had made it to 140.6 on sheer will, everyone's thoughts and prayers and nothing else. My body had long tapped out. It was just me and my thoughts that kept each painful step moving.

During my last three Ironmans I've felt nothing but total joy and elation. This shoot was completely different for me. It was a combination of thankfulness, disappointment, awe of my mental fortitude and just a dizzy blur of pushing my body to make it those last miles. The second Mike Reiley shouted "You are an Ironman" I made the Ballou Skies heart, pointed to the sky to say thanks for the blessings of the day and burst in sobs. My body gave out. That was it, not another step to be taken.

The amazing volunteers grabbed me and rushed me into the tent. I couldn't move my legs to even take a step. My glutes and hamstrings had locked into complete spasms. Dizzy, crying and confused I tried to explain that I hadn't peed during the day. I tried once, but nothing but a trickle. When they weighed me, I'd lost around 7 lbs. For a 120 lb girl, that's a lot.

Doctors are angels and nurses are right there with them. After assessing my blood pressure and seeing my skin pucker when they pinched it they knew I needed fluids so very badly. Two bags of IV fluid later and I finally stopped shaking.

It was a long, hot day.. and a day I will not soon forget. Why? Well, that's easy.. because I think I might be more proud and thankful for yesterday than any other Ironman yet. It's easy to keep going when things are going our way, but what about the other times.. the times when you know people will see your results and instead of saying "wow, she / he had a PR or placed this or that" they say "Geezz, she placed 56, that's not her best time or place or I hope she's ok!?" There's no other reason to keep going except for out of respect for your competitors who tried to make it to this place and you got the spot, for boys like Ryan Ballou who were so excited to see you on the race course, and for your own reasons in your heart that have nothing to do with anyone or anything else, the reasons why you started this sport and why you love it still.

I finished yesterday. I am an Ironman once again. I'm so very thankful that I took a journey on this amazing island for 140.6 miles. It wasn't the journey I'd expected, but I learned a whole lot more about myself on such a tough day that I didn't know before it started.

Thank you to my family for being here with me - Kyle, Deb, and Randy. Thank you to everyone who follow me, took a moment to write a message on my FB wall, sent me an email, mailed a card or just gave me a word of encouragement on the race course. You are my hero's and no matter the day I have out there, it is good to know you are there for me. I'm so blessed.

Thanks to my Ballou Skies teammates, sponsors like Top Gear and Powerbar, and everyone else who touches my life in a positive way.

Three more days on the Island and I plan to enjoy every last one!!

Trust

2011-10-06T18:12:00.011-07:00

Each time before I big race a few words always come to mind. For some reason, this one is the most prevalent every single time. It's not a long word.. or even a complicated one. It doesn't require a dictionary and it can mean many different things to different people.

With all that said, one thing is always true. You've got to have it before an event like the Ironman World Championships, or any big race or even life event for that matter.

I think Angela Naeth said it best when she was quoted saying "In sport, pain and suffering are choices, and anyone who complains about their choices needs to change their choices. Yes, training hurts, but it beats not training." Source: Slowtwitch.com

Why is trust so important when we see the quote above? In my mind it's 100% necessary to go into something as the pressure mounts and the suffering part, well my friends, that isn't an option, it's a given.

I don't care if you plan on coming in first or dead last... Ironman is a long tough day out there. It will have many unforeseen twists and turns. It will test your will beyond measure and it will literally only be you and your thoughts out there for 100% of 9+ hour day. Ironman isn't easy. If it was, everyone would do it.

When I start reading from Ironman.com that the women's 30-34 is the deepest it's been in 10 years, when I start feeling that anxious build up to the start line and when I pack my race bags only to see them again on the course.... trust.. is a must.

I trust my Coach, Coach Justin, that he's prepared me physically and mentally to execute the best race possible.

I trust my friends and family, that they will spend tomorrow lifting me up and carrying me when times get tough. I trust that no matter where I finish, they will love me, care about me and never give up on me.

I trust myself, that I will give it absolutely everything I have, no matter how hard it gets, no matter HOW much I WANT to quit (and I know I will at more than one point) that I will not quit. That I will left right, left right all the way until I hear those words once again "Kim, you are an ironman!"

I trust my faith, that it always loves, always forgives and never fails. That it is bigger than all of this and that it will be tested, but that it will always come out on top in the end.

Finally, I trust that I'm doing something bigger than just racing. I'm racing to help boys like Ryan Ballou live longer, healthier lives and that when I see him tomorrow out on the course, that each step will be more than worth it.

Trust. Such a simple word, but the more I race, the more I learn and the more I test myself, the more this word means to me. My most trusted family is here, Kyle and Deb are with me. Everyone else, well, you're here too.. right here in my heart. Even in my darkest hours out there on the Queen K slugging through the miles in the heat of the day.. I am never.. ever alone.

Thank you in advance for everyone who has reached out this week to drop a line, send a hug and tell me they are there. It means so much to me. Thank you in advance for all of your thoughts and prayers on Saturday. I'll take every last one.

This is number #1702, signing off. See you at the finish!!

It Doesn't Get Much More Awesome than This!

2011-10-02T13:54:00.003-07:00

Wow.. really freakin cool. When I started this journey I never imagined it would put me on a collision course with some of the most amazing, caring people that I honestly, some of them, have never even met! Kiet is one of those.. I'm not sure where I started following his blog or maybe it was the cute picture of him and Bree when he was training on the Island or what.. but ever since, we're like blood brothers or something. He's a cool spirit and I can't WAIT to finally meet him one day.. it will be like Christmas!

In the mean time, you can enjoy this video that he put together for some of us who will be racing next weekend. It's really sweet and heartfelt and I have been getting all kinds of wonderful send offs, messages, phone calls and everything else you could think of.. boy.. when people reach out like that you just feel loved..

Crush it in Kona! from KTT on Vimeo.

and you know what... that's a pretty darn good feeling to go into 140.6 miles of racing with on the big island.

The best part is.. my family and friends love me no matter what.. I could stink it up out there and end up walking the whole thing.. they would love me anyway. That might just be the best part of all.

Flight leaves at 8:00am tomorrow morning.. who's coming with me! Come on!! You know you want to! Hop on a plane..we'll see there :)

Last Trail Run On The Mainland

2011-09-30T09:04:00.012-07:00

This week was a little strange. It had everything from that the other pre-race leaving weeks had, you know.. lots of work, organizing, last minute errons, phone calls with friends / family, and of course some training too. It also was the week Kyle took a young man named Billy Myers on a hunt out in New Mexico. This wasn't just any hunt though, it was Billy's "HUNT OF A LIFETIME" and that was with some of the money that was raised by Camo Cares, a charity event that Kyle & his partner at Wired Outdoors, organized to help these kids with life threatening illnesses. Billy has leukemia and he and his family are battling to keep him healthy and beat this nasty disease.

Any time I'm tempted to think "it's all about me" I am promptly hit with the reality that it most certainly is not, not even close. Here this young man is, facing such scary things at such a young age (17 yrs old) and he just keeps on fighting and living his dreams. I'm so thankful that Wired Outdoors, Kyle's company, decided to start bringing awareness and raising money to help these kids. Make a Wish doesn't cover these sort of things, so until an organization like Hunt of a Lifetime came along to pair kids up with hunters like Kyle and Jason, there was no outlet for these kids to make this happen. Most of their families are so overwhelmed with medical bills they couldn't dream of taking their child on a hunt, nor do they have the time, means or sometimes the knowledge to travel and know who to talk to about it.

I had talked to Kyle the night before and he was a little disappointed after their first day of hunting. Billy was feeling pretty weak with all of his medications and they hadn't seen any Elk to even get close to Billy taking a shot. He asked me to pray, and pray hard, that tomorrow would be the day for Billy.

So the next morning I woke up, and I decided rather than it being "all about Kona" or what I would probably normally think about a week out from a big race.. that I would do something else.

I ran.. I ran through the forests and the leaves. Up the trails I knew well just before the light of day.

I felt an strange calm come over me about the day.. Billy and the hunt... Kona.. all of it. I lifted up my thoughts and really just trusted the silence of the forest. As weird as that sounds!! I don't know.. I was just in my own little world and it was a place where the hustle and bustle of all this other stuff that clouds our vision doesn't exist - not who's wearing what, who's sponsoring who, time, heart rates, the race... none of it was there. It was me BEFORE of all of this..

Just me...

the road (or the trail I should say)...

And it was good.

I had a very strong feeling that today was going to be Billy's day. Shouldn't we all get that once in awhile.. a day where it's "our day"! Where the world lifts us up and sends us positive vibes? What if we really did have a day where all our friends and families were thinking about us and wishing us well and praying for strong positive outcomes. Oh.. wait :) I do. It's next week... So I realized, today was Billy's day and just as the sun broke through the cloudy morning sky, I thought of all of us who were rooting for him and how we came together. That my friends is why life is so good. We DO have the power to change things to make things different and we have to believe their are reasons to stop, listen and have in our hearts something good and positive toward others. It's one very small thing we can do, it doesn't cost a thing and it really does work.

Billy got his elk that day.. and I got a whole lot more than I ever thought I could out of that one little trail run.

It was a good day.

Way to go Billy.. we are all so proud of you and so happy to get to be a part of your day. You're amazing and you're going to kick this cancer in the pants :) I know it.

5 Days and Counting - Almost Kona Send Off Time!

2011-09-28T14:41:00.003-07:00

Things are getting crazy around here and I like it. How insane is it that Kona is finally just around the corner! Can you believe it! Can you feel the energy!! I know I can!! I'm beyond excited - not just for the race! I'm excited about the weather, the energy of the island, the town of Kona, eating at some amazing places, seeing friends and of course, swimming in that crystal clear water and even throwing a little shin-dig afterward!

Life is truly good and at this point, there isn't too much that could bring me down. Not even two of our friends cancelling at the last minute could do it (although it did for a few minutes). I believe that we only have so much energy, so we should spend it wisely on things that are positive.

I had been fighting some sort of sinus thing for almost two weeks and low and behold I finally beat it this weekend. Or should I say, the Nedi-Pot beat it. I had been resisting buying one of these forever. I had heard they worked so well, but I just didn't like the thought of pouring some dang solution INTO my nostril and having it come out the other side. Like really?? You want me to do WHAT?? Finally, I'd had it. A week of sore throats and feeling run down and by Friday night I'd reached my limit. Honestly, I was amazed at the progress the next day after one use. I hopped on my bike and banged out some really tough intervals on the trainer. Yes, the little Nedi pot has me a believer!

This week is devoted to seeing some great friends and teammates at our Ballou Skies send-off dinner where I recieved this AWESOME little pineapple from Matt & Kristen! Thanks guys! Knowing my team and Ty & Ryan Ballou will be there for the race just means so much to me and I couldn't be more thankful to represent Ballou Skies for my 140.6 mile journey.

Speaking of my journey, it hasn't been all roses - but really, who's has? If you would like to read a little article that was posted on the Training Peaks Website, just click the link below. I was thankful they decided to share my story and I'll be sitting on a panel for them on Wed. at the Expo in Kona at 10am so if you're around - please stop by!

http://blog.trainingpeaks.com/posts/2011/9/27/athlete-spotlight-kim-schwabenbauer-talks-kona.html

5 days and counting till I head out! So excited!!

Peace out boyscout!

Fall Into Good Eating Habits with Healthy Foods!

2011-09-24T11:27:00.024-07:00

The warm days of summer are coming to a close and sweaters, football games and changing leaves are just around the corner. Cooler weather is the perfect time to switch gears to seasonal foods to make hearty soups and other piping hot dishes that provide ample nutrients, vitamins and minerals.

It doesn't have to be hard to incorporate great fall foods at the peak of their freshness, ripe for the picking! I've listed a few of my favorites below that will hopefully give you some ideas on how to fall into good eating habits with some great seasonal foods!

1. Apples

Although the obvious choice, sweet, tart, golden delicious or braeburn, apples are a wonderful fall food that can be eaten raw, top a salad or baked into a delicious dish. Don't peel that apple though, the precious flavonoids and heart-healthy fiber lie in the skin! Four grams of fiber makes a medium apple an "good source" of this nutrient and apples are also packed with potassium, calcium, vitamin C and folic acid.

2. Root Vegetables

Root vegetables, such as carrots, potatoes, parsnips, beets, rutabagas and turnips, also abound this time of year. They add a hearty favor and a big dose of nutrients to any dish. Carrots contain beta-carotene, a compound that may reduce heart disease and some types of cancer. We tend to eat a lot of potatoes in the fall, but something you may not know is that fresh potatoes have MORE potassium than bananas and tons of vitamin C. Sweet potatoes are a great choice because they contain extra vitamin A and I love to make them quickly and easily in the microwave. You can buy them pre-wrapped with cellophane and after 10 mins in the microwave and it will be hot and ready!

3. Brussel Sprouts

When I was a kid my Mother used to make me sit at the table until I would eat all of my brussel sprouts. I have to admit, I never learned to love them, but I had to hand it to the women, she just wouldn't give up. Now that I'm older, I am amazed by this power-packed veggie. Just a few of the health benefits include a very good source of folate, good source of iron, and 1/2 cup contains more than the daily recommended intake of vitamin K. Combined them with a savory sauce to compliment their flavor and texture. Here's a great recipe for brussel sprouts with prosciutto and walnuts from www.health.com.

4. Squash

I love summer squash on the grill, but it just wouldn't be fall without the sweet taste of butternut squash soup. Winter squash contains health supportive-carotenoids and fiber. There are plenty of ways to use this awesome vegetable, but you will need a little refresher on the preparation. For instance, for butternut squash soup, you will need to cut squash in half lengthwise; discard seeds and membrane. Brush oil over cut sides of squash; sprinkle cut sides with 1/4 teaspoon salt. Place squash, cut sides down, on a jelly-roll pan. Bake at 350° for 1 hour and 20 minutes or until squash is tender. Cool slightly. Scoop out squash pulp from skins; discard skins. In addition, cooking light shared a great article for using this great veggie!

5. Pumpkin

Whether your carving faces for decoration and roasting the seeds or making pumpkin pie, fall just wouldn't be fall without pumpkins! This derivative of winter squash is a great source of antioxidants such as vitamin C, A and E. It also contains a host of B vitamins and of course contains loads of fiber as well. Pumpkins can be roasted, pureed or baked and is a great way to get into the fall spirit while reaping the benefits of this nutrient power house!

These are just a few of the great fall foods that can not only add some flavor and color to your diet, but also some excellent nutrients that will help you lead a healthier and happier lifestyle. Don't be afraid to try something new when it comes to fall foods. You certainly can't go wrong and do be sure to wash all of your fall produce thoroughly to ensure all chemicals are removed before cooking.

I hope you've enjoyed some ideas for great fall cooking! Feel free to leave a comment with your favorite fall food or recipe! I would love to hear your comments!!

The Big 3-2

2011-09-14T13:38:00.018-07:00

I'm not sure what it is about Birthday's coming around that leave me introspective these days. I guess it's a combination of getting older obviously, and then at the same time, not really being at the same place as other people who already have children and things of that nature in their life.

The truth is, I really hadn't given a lot of thought to where I would be at 32 years old! At times, I'm sure I thought I'd be in a big house with 2 children doing the thing and completing my, I don't know what you call it "life plan" I guess! The good news is that at 32 years old, I love my life and even if it does meet my 20 year old expectations, it meets my definition of a place where I am really at peace with who I am and the person I am striving to become. I certainly am no where close to reaching that person character-wise, and sometimes I still do some really dumb, silly, ridiculous things.. but maybe I have to get some more of that out before I'm ready to have those little kiddos running around! Naaahhh who are we kidding.. I'll still be doing dumb things even if I have those little rug rats!

At 32 I was trying to think of some things that I've learned and I came up with a few:

1. My family, friends and those I care about come first, always.. and if they need me, I best drop everything and be there. They are the most important thing in my life and it should always be that way.

2. It takes a LONG time to master things - 10,000 hours by some estimates, so I had better learn to be patient with myself and those around me at times. Patience IS a virtue and one I need to work on big time!

3. I'm pretty versatile / adaptable, more so than I thought. I used to worry about what people thought of me and the fact that my life / thoughts / ideas / structure / goals / priorities didn't match theirs. Now I realize there is enough room in this world for all of these and I don't worry so much about what they think. Whatever!

4. You have to cherish the small things - a note from a friend, your health, time with friends etc. etc. because they are such a blessing in my life.

5. I'm a work in progress. The farther I come in this journey, the more I realize I still have so far to go. The people being brought into my life these days are very good people, big hearts and they care about me so much.. I need to learn from them because they are so wise! Most of them are between 50 yrs young and 80 yrs young and they are some of the hippest, most interesting people ever!

6. Life is hard, but it's supposed to be that way. Everyone says bad things happen for a reason, well, I believe sometimes they do, and sometimes the reason is strait up a spiritual battle. What you do with those things is what makes all the difference. I've seen people crumble this year and I've seen people find inner strength because of their faith and inspire hundreds if not thousands of people. It rocks my world... life needs to be hard because it sorts through and remolds our character constantly. This is a good thing.. not that it makes it any easier!

7. Helping others should never be about me. Any time I start to get all "oh - I did a good thing" I have to remind myself that I stink and that one little thing really was nothing in the scheme of things.. remember the goal Kim, remember the goal. Fighting my human nature is a life long battle, but I don't intend to give up any time soon.

8. The hardest things in life are also the most rewarding. Seeing athletes struggle and toil, trying to keep them on course, believing in them, investing in them, never giving up.. watching them work and work.. then one day, it happens.. they have a breakthrough! They are SO happy! Seeing this happen spills over and teaches them, and me, about LIFE and about how it works.. if it was easy, everyone would do it.

9. It's ok to rest. I don't do it enough, in fact, I don't do it NEARLY enough. The times I finally llet my mind go and let the man upstairs do his thing are some of the best times ever. They renew me, lift me up and remind me just what a gift this life truly is...

10. I'm never giving up on my dreams. I believe God blesses us when we are doing his work and when we are striving, despite all odds, to continue. Whatever it is that you're doing, if you're doing it for the right reasons... NEVER EVER give in to those negative thoughts that tell you - you're not good enough, you don't deserve this, just give it up and let it go. Perseverance is necessary and in time, will be rewarded (even if its just with a lesson that we needed to learn).

If you've made it this far, make it a little farther with me!

Kyle and I are really trying to save money this year, well a combination of that and between river leases, propane, car repairs etc. etc. that we just don't have a lot of extra floating around! We've decided to go basically "no gifts" for Birthdays etc.

This morning I received the best gift of all from him.. and it didn't cost a thing.. but it must have taken him so much time.. and to us, that's the most valuable thing of all..

I hope you enjoy the VIDEO he made me about a big part of my life these days! It meant so much to me and trust me, we have been through SO much together that it means even more.

Courage

2011-09-06T18:09:00.012-07:00

I've been thinking a lot about Courage lately. I think about it in the early mornings when the sun is just beginning to rise, in the late day when I my legs are weary and I don't feel like going out for my next workout, and when I watch the sun slowly fade into the distance from the last hill repeat on my bike.

There's plenty of time to think out there. One of the wonderful things our sport provides is a chance to feel the wind against your face and either embrace the sound of your breath as you run through the darkness or just think about life, solve the worlds mysterious or reflect on your day.

I'm not sure why I've been thinking so much about courage, except that it's one of the things that ties us all together as athletes. Every person who has ever stepped foot on a starting line knows what I mean.

Races are tests of ourselves. Even if it's a "train through" kind of situation or even a 5k "fun run." There is a clock and by the time you are done with whatever the distance, you will have a time in place, forever stored on athlinks :) It's only you out there (unless you are doing a relay of some sort) and the only person to either blame, thank or otherwise, is yourself. No one can make that part easier or more complex.

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.
Walt Disney

I rather like this part of racing. I was thinking about it the other day and I love how when we are all beside each other it doesn't matter what kind of car you drive, if your house is clean, if you have kids or a spouse or if you make a million dollars a year. The usual measures of "society" just don't exist on a race course. It's you, and it's the clock. Everything else really is pretty arbitrary.

One isn't necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest.
Maya Angelou

Where does courage bind us? That simple, it's the common thread between what it takes for us to start this journey in the first place and to agree on this date in 5 days, 2 months or 1 year we will be in this particular place, at this particular time, doing ____ THIS (whatever it may be). Sure, you can back out, but it takes courage to commit to the training to get there and it takes courage to step up to the starting line itself.

Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.
Mark Twain

To be quite honest, I don't think that part gets any easier with time folks. If you're anything like me, the goals just get loftier and the stakes get higher. That's the fun of it you see. Without that, you wouldn't need to muster the courage to get there...it would just come easy and who wants that!

When Branden, my MTV athlete, changed his goal within the first two weeks of our training I kept asking him if he told his parents. This went on for a full day or two until I finally got to the root of it. Telling someone else made the goal real, and once it was real, there was a fear involved that he may not reach it. That fear came from the fear of disappointment. For the first time, Branden realized that this is the fear we all face as athletes and that it will never change. If you don't invest in that dream or goal, then there is no real hope of achieving it. The courage to tell someone, to invest is what makes these goals possible.

All I know is that this journey of Ironman Hawaii really started in 2009 when I was trying to force the issue and ended up having a horrible season that ended with a broken collarbone. In 2010 things started to turn around, but yet it was not my year to stand on the starting line. After qualifying at Ironman Cozumel in November of 2010, I knew on October 8th, 2011 that I would be standing in Kailua bay in Kona, Hawaii to do one thing, and one thing only - to race my heart out.

Courage is like love; it must have hope for nourishment.
Napoleon Bonaparte

What I didn't know would be the journey that would take place in between. Where I would face plenty of lows this year, train at a new level, face many more fears and learn so many more things about myself and why I love every dang thing about this sport. It took courage to hit the register button and it takes courage every day to get out there at 5:00am and attempt to make my dreams come true. I'm inspired by other peoples courage all around me... it wells up in me when I see an athlete do their first triathlon because I know just how much courage that takes. When my Aunt Dena looked cancer in the face this year and used her faith to beat it down with a stick, always believing, always knowing that she could beat it.. and then, one day she did. That's courage my friend.. in the flesh. When I watch athletes just like me crash and break ample bones and the world build them up and they recover to doing what they love... once again, I'm amazed by their courage.

Most of us have far more courage than we ever dreamed we possessed.
Dale Carnegie

It's no small feat and it's one of the reasons I just smile when people make fun of me or tell me that I'm just wasting my time investing in this sport and everything to do with it. Courage can't be bought, it can't be quantified and I find it because I believe in this journey and what it can do for me and for others.. it's worth it to me a million times over and if I had the chance, I'd do it all over again.

So many people I know are racing this weekend. It's time.. Stand up and be courageous. Be thankful and most of all, enjoy every last minute of what you are about to do because so few have the courage, fortitude and health to be able to stand at that starting line. Now is your moment - capture it.

Apology

2011-09-01T08:53:00.011-07:00

Sometimes we write things in haste. Actually, let's be honest, most of the time, I write things in haste. I live a fast life. One that leaves the house before 5:30am most mornings and doesn't return home until 8:45pm like last evening. This life isn't for everyone, in fact, sometimes, its even a little too much for me, but for now.. it's the only option I have to keep everything going at the same time.

This fast life sometimes leads to me trying to throw together a blog in about 7 minutes. Let it be known, I do not think this is the best approach. In fact, let it be known I even think this is a poor approach, but that sometimes it is the only option I have. The other option is not to write for a couple of weeks (which probably, at times, should be taken). Sometimes I over do it. Sometimes I write down my thoughts and feelings so fast that they come out wrong. This can lead to hurt feelings and bad blood. It's never my intention, but that doesn't change the fact that it happens.

I do wish that sometimes people would give me the benefit of the doubt. However, that's another story. My friends who know me well, know that I am not a mean or malicious person. They also know I have a tendency to forget to run things through the filter that everyone else seems to have between their brain and their mouth. This leads to me coming off as a very sincere and honest person, but can also lead to me coming off as a jerk at times because the true meaning of what I am thinking is clouded by the poor use of language to get my point across.

My point here is that if there is anyone reading this blog that I have offended in the past, or will offend in the future, you should come to me, and I will discuss it with you and admit when I am wrong and need to say "I'm sorry, that was the wrong way to do things, please, accept my apology." I put myself out there, and the very nature of doing this leads to these type of situations. This blog is public. People from my company read it - yep, I know you do. Family reads it, my Dad reads it, and my friends read it. People I don't even know read it. Sometimes they form opinions on reading only. That's a risk I take. I'm willing to do that. For me doing this my way, because it is my blog, is important.

Do I wish I had more time to make it grammatically correct and go over it a few times to make sure the actual take away portrays the meaning of my post - yes. Does that mean I will have time to do that most of the time. Nope.

Kyle has said many times, if I don't have 30 mins to an hour to write my blog, and check it, then I should not write it. Part of me agrees with him. Part of me just can't subscribe to that method. I'd never write. Ever. Or I wouldn't sleep.

I'm only writing this to let people know, I'm doing my best here. If my best isn't good enough for you, then feel free to stop reading my blog. I'm fine with that. If you care about me as a person, and I've ever offended you with something I've written - come to me, don't talk about me behind my back or say harsh things - I'll discuss it with you and I'll always say when I have made a mistake. I care about the people in my life immensely, and if my words impact them in a negative way I take that seriously. Never would I want something to bring someone down or make them feel badly. I try not to be prideful or boastful... and I don't believe I am better or above making a mistake. I make plenty of them, and I try (remember I said TRY) to learn from them most of the time.

I'm so very fortunate to have people in my life that support me and love me, that build me up and allow me to slowly become the person I am meant to be. These people know my heart and love me regardless of all of my flaws and mistakes. How lucky am I?

I have a feeling my last post might have done some damage. If it did, I am sorry. It was not my intent. I do not even remotely believe that there are better swimmers at Pitt Masters / they are the best swimmers in Pittsburgh than at my previous masters swimming at the YMCA. That was not even remotely what I meant. I loved the group at the Y and I enjoyed ever bit of my time with them. They made me better and now I am ready to have a coach on deck and take that to the next level because that is what I PERSONALLY need and feel I would benefit from. However, let's be adult about this shall we. If you have time to talk about it, you have time to come to me. So please, do, and I will let you know my thoughts and feelings.. always, honestly and without sugar-coating. Triathlon and my circles of friends are small.. and I realize that sometimes helps, and sometimes, bites you in the arse. It is in our nature to talk about things, and it is not necessarily in our nature to forgive or to love. However, it doesn't stop us from trying to do these things.. and without them, there really is no purpose or meaning in our life. At least that's what I think.

That's all I really have to say on this matter. I felt the need to speak out about it and I hope it is taken in the right vein.

Thanks,

Kim

Tape Worm

2011-08-30T14:03:00.013-07:00

(Note: These pictures have nothing to do with this post, but I think a post without pictures sometimes can get boring so I'm making an effort to put anything at all up that I have.. which isn't much, but I'm doing it anyway - so here you go! Enjoy the randomness of it all. Lastly, I would like to give a quick shout out to Kiet, for battling at IM Canda this past weekend.. he's such a trooper and someone I look up to immensely, if you haven't read his blog - you should, he's funny, smart, raises money for cancer in honor of his Mother, and has a sense of humor about all of this.. which heaven knows, we need)!

I'm pretty sure I have one. Gross.. maybe. Honest.. definitely. How the heck did I get so HUNGRY all the time.

Every morning the same thing occurs:

4:30am.. it's dark.. it's early. I'm not quite ready to open my eyes yet.. I check the clock.. yes, at least 30 more minutes of sleeping! Wait.. ahhh.. it hurts. What is that.. oh man.. my stomach is so empty.. (insert grumbling by stomach in a low but insistent grrrrrr...). Oh NO! Not you again.. seriously. I need to start keeping peanut butter and jelly sandwiches by my bed. This is ridiculous!

Is anyone else out there dealing with this phenomenon? I don't know about you, but I've about had it. They are starting to call me the human vacuum cleaner at the office. My husband said "you sure are looking skinny" this weekend. For heaven sake man - I'm eating the whole dang place! What do you want me to do!

20 hours or so of training will do that to you and darn it, I even missed a workout!

The good news is this week is a small decline in the total amount of hours so I'm not quite my usual mad self with trying to fit everything in. I'm using that time to strategize, plan for the future and prepare for the weeks ahead (aka buy wedding gifts, attempt to get organized - notice i said attempt, go to Pitt masters swimming for the first time).

If I could do ONE thing this week that would make me happy, it would be go to Pitt Masters. I've manged to switch gyms because the new place is newer, closer, and cheaper. However, it does NOT have any masters swimming. Knowing this, I thought it would FORCE me to make the 25ish minute drive to Pitt Masters which seems to be producing MASSIVE amounts of extremely talented triathlon swimmers - aka Chad, Beth etc. etc. They are the who's who of swimming these days. They have a coach on deck which I think can be helpful too. They start at 5:45am.. my previous gym - 6:00am. You wouldn't think 15 mins would make that much of a difference. Well folks, for this chick, it does. That combined with me not knowing exactly how long it takes to get down there etc.. has manged to bollux me up for two weeks now.

It's time. I'm out of free passes. If I do ONE thing this week - I have to MAKE THIS HAPPEN. I manged to miss Monday and Wed. So, it has to be Thursday. Thursday at 5:45am if I am not at Pitt Masters, you have permission to call me names and tell me I am going to swim 1:07 mins in an Ironman swim for the rest of my life.

This my friends, will not make me happy. So, that should do it.

I'm excited to make it happen, but sometimes, you just need a little kick in the pants. So go ahead, give it to me!! Tell me a trick to just buck up and make it happen - call me names - tell me I stink at swimming - because darn it - do I want to get better or NOT! This is part of the plan and has been since January this year.

No more talking.

Actions speak louder than words.

And my stomach at 4:30am speaks louder than either.

Not cool, not cool.

Every Day I'm Shufflin!

2011-08-25T08:07:00.007-07:00

I can't believe I'm quoting a song called party rock anthem. Really Kim??! Yes, really. Well - it's catchy darn it! I find myself breaking into some little techno dance right in my car sometimes (when I have the energy, which is pretty rare these days!).

Did you ever wonder what motivates people? I sure do, all the time. For some people it's money, or power. For others it's improving the world or helping others. For still others its finding a peace about their life. What I've found from both coaching AND life is that people are very different in what provides that motivation. Of course, for many of us, it's putting better numbers on the board, making progress and occasionally, having a breakthrough training session and hopefully race.

What do you do in the dark time though. The times where you're barely balancing everything you have to do, with everything you want to do. When the world is demanding of your time and energy, but let's face it, there's only so much to go around right?!

I'm faced with this question all the time. Sometimes between work meeting that cut into my evenings, pool closings due to weather and even friend or family commitments I get down right disgruntled. I feel lost. I feel like I can't do it, that it's just to much. I try to take it day by day, but darn it, "how much more can I really fit in!!" I ask myself! Reading - PLEASE - no time. Watching TV - again.. laughter... not even close. Life is just too busy for our own good sometimes and the part we miss out on most - you guessed it - recovery.

As I was driving from my house to the airport to pick up business associates, after my 18 mile run yesterday sucking on a 20oz bottle filled with chocolate milk and shoving almonds in my mouth at mock two, I was thinking how nice it would have been to do an ice bath. How my legs were literally throbbing while I was sitting there in the car. There was JUST NO TIME. I could have got up at 4:00am to start, but I could only muster 5:30 because I felt a minimum of 7 hours sleep would get me through long day ahead. Sometimes, something - has got to give.

Ironman training will beat you down. It will wear you out physically and mentally. It will push the limits of what you and your family and friends consider acceptable. If you're like me, you'll miss workouts sometimes just because you'll try, but they just won't happen or sometimes, you'll just say _____ it just because you're tired of trying so hard and killing yourself.

That's when it comes back to the why. It's the same why as on race day, the same why you'll probably think 723,390 times over the course of 10+ hours as the sun beats down on you back and you pop salt tablets like they are candy.

For me, the why is complicated. It changes slightly from year to year, early season to late season. It's a combination of all of these different reasons that sum up how I feel about my life and all the time I spend putting into this ONE thing. It doesn't make it any easier, it just makes it bearable at times when I'm up yet again at dark o'clock, pulling countless yards in the pool or on my bike seat until my hiney / women parts actually feels like they will fall the freak off.

I don't even know if I could put the "why" into words if I tried.. the best I can do is say I believe I'm doing this, all of this, for a reason.... if that reason changes or just doesn't seem right anymore, I'll do something else. So all the "when are you going to __ insert - settle down, have kids, be more normal" you can put that in your pipe and lite it up!

For now, only God knows why I've seem to have been given the combination of glutton for punishment, extremely hard worker and a tieensy tiny bit of talent that has me totally in love with this sport and the people in it. The fact that I can do something I love AND help others like Ryan Ballou and our Ballou Skies team raise money, well, that pretty much sums it up for me at this time. Sometimes I'm gutting it out on the treadmill thinking about the finish of the ironman, and sometimes all the motivation I need is a big old steak dinner or ice cream after the workout is over!

Whatever your why is, figure it out, make peace with it, and keep it in mind when life really starts to bite you in the hiney. Sure, back out of a workout here or there.. it's good for you.. go shopping or spend time with the people you love instead. That's part of sport, that's normal, THAT my friends is a good thing.

If you're not enjoying it, and not motivated to do it - don't. There's no reason to keep pushing yourself to do something you're just not into. Sometimes we go through phases and we need a break. Go ahead, give yourself one. It's ok..

No matter what you love to do though.. keep on shufflin.. life sure is good, and even when it's bad.. because of the people that surround us with love and understanding.. it's still pretty darn good.

It's Not All About The Training

2011-08-17T11:41:00.019-07:00

I spend a lot, and I mean a lot, of time swimming, biking and running. While I know it's not as much as other people, I do my best with the time that I have. It allows me to still balance some of the things in my life I hold most dear, like Kyle, my family, time with my friends and every once in awhile.. a little me time. I've been saying since the middle of filming "made" last month that I was going to go get a mani-pedi if I made it through all that craziness. Well, this chick STILL hasn't done it. Somehow you just roll right back into trying to fit in this workout and that, have dinner with this or that person and / or actually work / sleep / eat! All very important things. Hopefully, sometime soon, I'll slow down and take a little me time! In the mean time, it was a nice little Friday night for the Ballou Skies Kona crew. We had a photo shoot for this portion of our team and we are sending six, that's right six, people to Hawaii for the World Championships this year. If you didn't think Pittsburgh was a tri mecca before, maybe you should meet my dear friends. They are some of the hardest working / talented people I know. They are physically strong, and mentally, even stronger. The best part is.. they have a real heart for this cause and realize that they money we are raising actually is helping.

If you have just 2 minutes, watch this video. It is amazing what the power of just having this money for research can do to help prolong the lives of children with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy.

Once we took our picture, it was time to investigate the newest that Duane, and the Engine House Winery, had to offer. I'm not sure if you knew this, but I love wine. I mean like I don't think I could live in a world where it didn't exsist. Or if I did, I would be sad, sad place!!!

Duane has his own urban winery. His grapes are flown in and if you're interested, it only costs about $10G's per barrel. You have have your own barrle, right there when you want it. When I'm with Duane, I'm in heaven.. there are malbecs and Pino's galore.. all for the tasting.

So even though it's all about the heart with Ballou Skies and DMD, wine is good for the heart too. Add in a little socialzing on a Friday evening and you have one happy Kim. Don't worry, I still got up at 6am on Saturday and rode my bike a long ways.

All training and no play just doesn't make me happy. Friday night was a nice reminder of how lucky we are to have a great group, raising money for something so very important that will definitely help the lives of others.

My pledge to myself is raise $200.00 between now and October 8th when I do the Ironman World Championships. If you would like to help, just to www.ballouskies.com and click on my name where it will take you to a page with my bio. You can use paypal right from there.

Does anyone else out there have trouble fitting in "me" time among all the things we have to do every day?? What do you do to just make it happen and finally allow yourself to shut off and do some things you enjoy??

A big thanks to Duane for taking our awesome shots for the magazine and for sharing some of your talent with us on a Friday evening! I was buzzed enough to buy a few expensive bottles!

Ironman Lake Placid - Finally, the Race Report (the real deal!)

2011-08-10T12:24:00.043-07:00

Race morning you could just feel the energy. The town of Lake Placid really isn’t that big and fill it with an extra 7000-9000 people and you could really feel the bodies in motion. I could barely get in and out of transition in the morning due to the lines and backups. When we found out that morning there were no wetsuits allowed (which it had been rumored at the race meeting), I was not overly thrilled (especially considering my lack of swimming lately). The thought of this being my biggest mass start so far by about 1000-1200 people made me quiver a little (let alone without the safety blanket of a wetsuit). I have to admit, I was scared (like downright scared). However, we do things that scare us every day, so without a wetsuit (or skinsuit) I went. Many people chose to wear them anyway, but there would be no awards or Kona slots so I just didn’t see the point for me personally.

As we lined up I was so crowded I even started to slightly panic before we started. Jocelyn and treaded together and shared some last encouraging words before the gun. When it broke, it was by far the worst swim experience of my entire life. Can I just say,

Kicking

Pushing

Punching

Grabbing

Bodies on bodies, on bodies

Big mouthfuls of water

Pretty much the worst I could imagine it. For those first two minutes I ALMOST had a panic attack and quit the race. Really.. no joke. Finally, I made my way to the inside of the buoys and could start to actually resemble a swim stroke. I shiver just thinking about it. Obviously, I lined up in the wrong place or something. Poor Jocelyn got kicked in the stomach and puked in the water.. yep, that’s a bad swim. When we got close I would get outside for the turn buoys and I would actually dread seeing them coming because I knew it meant a fight. Finally, I started feeling better and fight I did. I hate to be like that, but I was getting killed out there. The beach run out I saw my time (33:XX) and it reinvigorated me a bit, not NEARLY as bad as I thought. I headed back into the second loop with a sense of purpose and even found clear water here or there. When I finally exited I was so dang happy to be out of that water I didn’t even care about my time or place! I made it! I survived!!!

I jumped over a few people on the ground going up the beach during their wetsuit stripping (and I heard one guy actually didn’t have anything on under his wetsuit once he was stripped – yikes dude – forget something??).

Out on the bike it was the perfect temp and maybe even a little chilly to start. I knew there were a series of hills at the beginning and I kept everything in check. My aero bottle started to come out and I caught it before it slipped out causing me or someone behind me to wreck. I held it with my hand, pulled over, and fixed it about 10 mins into the bike. I didn’t like it that I got passed by so many people, but hey, I needed water, and I knew later in the race I would be thankful if my hydration levels were high. The first bike loop was fun. I was controlled and enjoying the downhills (little scary), flats, fast sections, rollers, changing scenery and even the monster hills at the end coming into town. For the first time EVER on the bike, I peed. Yep, I did it. I knew it was a good sign. Coming into town there was a girl holding a sign that read “Smile if you peed yourself” and I gave her the biggest smile ever!! I even waved! She and her friends all cheered!! Honestly, it was a blast. I just rode within myself (heart rate, cadence, and stuck to my nutrition game plan). When I finally came into town the place blew up. Lots of people were cheering “Go GIRL” or “Way to go Lady”! I thought it was strange they would call out the fact that I was a women but I just smile and waved and moved on! I expected to be through the first loop in around 2 hrs 50- 3 hrs, but somehow my time only showed 2:42. I assessed everything – nutrition, check, heart rate , check, energy, check, cadence, double check. Yep, everything was fine – I let it go and continued on. The second loop I played some cat and mouse with a particular 47 year old women who was just not content to let me pass. Not sure what her deal was but I felt like saying “Hey, we’re not the same age group lady, it’s ok!” Finally, around mile 80 I put 5 hard minutes in and pushed past enough not be re-passed. Just over the hill Kyle and his Mom Deb / her boyfriend Robert came into view and I was SO happy to see them. While I was waving Kyle yelled “You’re in sixth place, 5^th place is only 1 minute up!” and I almost fell off my bike. Really?? Was I doing that well?? I knew I’d caught some girls but I guess I just didn’t realize. That was it.. I was on a mission.

For the rest of bike I put on a small press.. nothing crazy, just a little more than I would have had I not known anything. I could only hope he was right and that I still had some legs for the run. All of the sudden I realized I wanted it, and I wanted it bad. Two months ago I would have said my goal was top three amateurs, but I had let it go – until now. Now, it was go time. Now it was time to see what happened and actually race. I decided if my legs felt good on the run, I would do just that. I would try to race myself into the top three women.

The results say I came off the bike in 2^nd. I want you to know I did not. I came off in 3^rd and then was re-passed by the 4^th place girl out of T2. She was running strong.. bounding in fact and I had to pee. Yep, I had to pee bbbaaaddd. As we ran through town the cheers were deafening and I could hear Mary’s voice come out from the crowd. It just egged me on. I didn’t want to let this girl go.. we could use each other through the run and liked that thought of pushing each other to go faster and have a buddy. When I caught her about mile 3 I noticed she was in my age group and I could feel her body surge. She knew I was 30-34. I did something I don’t usually do, I talked to her.

“Hey, my names Kim, and I want you to know I already have my Kona spot, just FYI”

Her “Oh, I’m Lisa and THANK YOU for telling me!!”

We exchanged pleasantries about where we were from and told her not to stress, to run her race and let the girls come back to her. She nodded and I finally stopped to use the port-o-pot. Great job Lisa, you got that slot J

It was starting to get hot. Not St. Croix or Hawaii hot, but still hot. Hot enough I started pulling my tricks out of ice down the bra and under the hat. Water and gel kept me going and out onto River road I was feeling great. In fact, one guy told me I had better slow down. I took that as a good sign J Clicking away my legs felt spectacular – so spectacular that I started to wonder if the bottom might just drop out somewhere and I would DNF or something crazy. Cadence was high.. arms were pumping and I was holding right around 7:10-7:20…I wondered if it was too fast, checked everything.. nope, felt good.. let’s see what happens I told myself. What did I really have to lose.

I know I was in 3^rd because I SAW the other two girls going the other way on our loops. Both Suzy and Angela were running strong. We exchanged good jobs and there was only one thing to do, worry about my race, what I could do.. so that’s what I did.

The miles came and went. I passed Angela and we exchanged “good jobs / nice work”. I sang songs, thought about my life and about how thankful I was just to be enjoying the race. Jeremy passed me going the other way and looked strong. Jocelyn passed going the other way and we exchanged words. I was hoping she had a good day, as I’m selfish and wanted my friend in Kona with me. We looped up into town again and it brought me new life. Half way down, half to go.

In all honesty, I was working, and concentrating, but it just didn’t HURT like other races. Trust me, I know it sounds nuts, but it was very manageable. I went through a few low times, but for the most part, things didn’t really get “I want this over with” until mile 19 or so as we started to make our way up the HUGE hill into town. I just told myself – get to town, you can do anything once you get there. You will see your family, the crowd will CARRY you those last 2-3 miles. The hill hurt, as did the uphill through town.. Mary yelled, I gritted my teeth, but I never saw Suzy. It didn’t matter, I was giving it everything.. I heard the clock bell ring 5:00pm during mile 24-25 and I knew I could do this..dreams were coming true.. this very instant.

I passed a huge crowd yelling for Ballou Skies and I finally saw the stadium come into view. When I peeled off to turn right into the finish and run around the track it hit me. We’d had a day…my family, my friends, my coach, my team, my fellow bloggers.. we had a freakin day. I couldn’t hold it in.. the months on the trainer, the races earlier in the season that didn’t work out and made me doubt myself, Ryan Ballou, the time spent away from Kyle and my family, the early mornings, the prayers of everyone that day.. the tears… it was all coming together in one amazing beautiful mess of a thing and what came next was pure unadulterated joy.

I was so thankful.. I don’t know if I’ve ever been as thankful in a race as I was that day. Maybe not even Kona.

As soon as I crossed the line my legs gave out, but it didn’t matter. Every last drop was squeezed and nothing else mattered. Right there was my Mother in Law, Deb (who was a surprise! So glad that worked out), Kyle was there with the camera, Josh the MTV cameraman and Branden were there. It was surreal. In fact, at one point someone walked over and goes “who the heck is this chick anyway??” to Kyle with all the camera pointed on Branden and I! It was funny.. I didn’t care about anything really, except that my family was there and Branden got to see what a real ironman was about.. right before his very eyes.

Honestly, what does this teach us folks:

&l1. Most of go into ironman overcooked a bit.. including me.

&lt2. You have to trust yourself, your training and your coach (aka not compare yourself to others who might be doing more or this or that)

Kyle kept stammering about me being first and I repeated said “no, Suzy was in front of me, you just didn’t see her, she’s already done.” Finally, he looked up the results, and I owed him a beer. Suzy came by a few minutes later after finishing and said she was in the bathroom. So, I’m not sure what happened but I hope she was ok.. wonder if she has a blog.

Anyway, it was a great day and one I will not soon forget. I appreciate all the kind words, thoughts, facebook messages, and emails. Not one goes unnoticed or unappreciated. You guys are truly amazing and I hope I can support you one bit as much as you build me up and give me the strength to keep trying and keep pushing. The way I see it, we’re all in this together right J This crazy fun mess they call life.

A HUGE THANK YOU to my supporters:

Ballou Skies for allowing me to be part of this great team that does so much good for boys with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (PLEASE like them on Facebook if you only do ONE thing today!). Power bar for fueling me with delicious products that never fail me on race day. Newtons for helping me run with good form and hopefully, get speedier with time. Rudy Project for making some of the coolest looking glasses and helmets that also are light and fast. Top Gear for outfitting me with a bike that works and helping me learn how to fix it along the way. CycleOps for making trainers that allow me to ride inside (which in Pittsburgh is quite often). Blueseventy for supporting our Ballou Skies team. Finally, last but not least Infinit for crafting the drink mixes that keep GI issues at bay all Ironman long! You keep me in the game, faster, longer and stronger – I can’t thank you enough!

Ironman Lake Placid - Finally, the Race Report (the backstory)

2011-08-09T10:10:00.027-07:00

My heart starts beating a little faster even thinking about Ironman Lake Placid. What a day, what an experience.

Humm.. how can I put it. Did you ever have one of those experiences that you truly felt was "meant to be"? Well, looking back IMLP was like that for me.

Let me first explain that I wasn't even supposed to be IN this race. Last year the day after the Ironman, I took a chance and got online at about 11:58 Monday morning and started trying to sign up online. I knew it was a long shot considering how many people actually travel TO lake placid, volenteer and then get first dibs on signing up the morning after the race on Sunday. I had two friends that actually were there in 2010 for this specific purpose (to sign up in person). My chances were slim, but I wanted to try anyway. When I had only a few triathlons to my name, somehow Beth and I decided that it was our destiny to do this race and signed up. Let me repeat that, we signed up for an Ironman after doing a sprint triathlon and maybe an Olympic (like one). At some point that spring, we had a heart to heart and thought better of it (aka backed out). Looking back, I might have done it, but it would have been ugly.

Only 200 people got into LP online in 2010 for the 2011 race. Amazingly enough, this chick was one of them. How do I know? Because the race director announced it was never supposed to even go online due to the number of people they had sign up on site. When I qualified for Kona, I questioned if I really should be doing the race at all. Would it hurt my chances in Hawaii? What if I didn’t recover? I’ve never done two Ironmans in one year?? Would I really want to train hard in the spring AND through the fall?? When push came to shove I just really wanted to do this race. For the atmosphere, for the stories I heard from my friends, for the scenery and the fact that we had SO many people from Pittsburgh headed up to New York. All of those reasons combined just made sense to me. I had to do it, there were too many yes’s and not enough no’s.

I didn’t mean to imply in the last blog that I hadn’t trained for IMLP. There were plenty of long trainer rides from January through March, a training trip to AZ in Feb, and some longish bike rides in May and June. I think I rode 6 hours twice during my prep and did a handful of 5:30 rides as well. It was July that really threw me. That was when MTV took over my life. I guess I just didn’t realize what me taking over as the coach was going to really require (nor did my co-workers, family or friends). After about one week of basically working my hiney off, I was starting to get the picture. If I could fit in one workout per day it was short and most of the time, it was really just me riding at a heart rate of 100 with Branden (the Made Coachee) for an hour or so.

At one point about two weeks in I called Coach Justin in a state of panic. I think my words were something like “Justin, I’ve stopped working out, not because I want to, but because I just can’t. I’m not sleeping, I’m barely eating and what I am eating is crap. I haven’t seen a pool in more than a week. WHAT SHOULD I DO!?” His instructions were simple, “stop stressing.” He explained that if I wanted to undo any chance I had of doing well, just keep doing what I was doing and let my cortisol levels shoot through the roof. That would do it. The next part surprised me. He said to just fit in one hard run, one hard bike and the longer stuff (as much I could do) on the weekend and I would be fine. REALLY?? That was it?? I thought! Yep, that was it. Even my pre-race talk was “well, neither of us really know what’s going to happen out there, so, have fun, don’t go crazy at the first part of any leg and enjoy it!”

Well folks. That’s exactly what I did. Three months ago I had big expectations and I had told both Kyle and my Coach of my intentions. As of a week before, I was sincerely hoping I could pull off a decent race and just finish happy and healthy. There was no pressure or anything.. just national television…no biggie.

After finally pulling off Branden getting into town, post conference calls and schedule planning it was finally time to get down to business. I really didn’t give the race much thought prior because I didn’t have time! It was a hustle right to the start line of filming and chance meetings with fellow 16 year old triathletes ;)

Thank heavens for Kyle and my Ballou Skies Teammates and friends (Jeremy, Jocelyn, Mark, Billy, Chris, Eric, Bruce and all the other family / supporters) or I would have been a total mess. Just enjoying the atmosphere of the area and being among so many people I knew was something I was really looking forward to prior to the race (and one of the reasons I kept it on the schedule).

More to come!! Stay tuned!

I literally "MADE" It!

2011-08-01T07:19:00.012-07:00

We did it folks.. To those of you that know and have managed to help keep me sane.. Thank you, thank you, thank you.. I cannot thank you enough. To everyone else, sorry for the secrets but they required it happen this way. For the last month I have been filming an episode of MTV Made - "I WANT TO BE A TRIATHLETE" It has been one of the most fun, crazy, tiring, exciting, trying, exhausting experiences of my life. Some days I was filming for 12+ hours while still trying to get in workouts pre-ironman and not let my own clients and regular job work fall to the wayside. The point is.. we made it. Yesterday was a big day. Branden did his first ever triathlon (Pittsburgh Adventure Race - 2 mile kayak (for liability purposes), 20k bike and 5k run to finish 2nd in his age group with a time of 1 hr 50 mins (10 minutes ahead of his goal time). He dropped his chain twice, and still almost had first (only was down by 1 min 40 seconds to 1st place). He is only 16 years old, lives in Pittsburgh and when I met him four weeks ago, had pretty much done no physical activity for years. He lost over 10 pounds and he got to experience our Tri world in full by coming with my to Ironman Lake Placid to see his first ever triathlon.

I couldn't be more thankful to have had a chance to do this. It really did change my life (and the way I look at reality TV!). Josh (film crew), Branden and I were like one little family every day for the last month and we saw really good times and really tough times together. It was probably the hardest I have ever worked at anything non-triathlon related in my life. Kyle had to pick up HUGE amounts of slack when I stopped eating because I didn't have time to buy groceries etc. My friends, family & athletes were so understanding during this time.. and I couldn't have done it without them.

The episode will air in September and I promise to let you all know when it does.

In the mean time, I've got a house that looks like a bomb went off.. bills to pay and still a bit of filming today and tomorrow ("pick up shots") they call them. I actually found I love being on camera and it was a lot of fun.. the outtakes should be hillarious (think me singing, dancing, making faces and rapping.. yes, rapping).

In the middle of all of it, I was trying to train for this little race in Lake Placid that I had always wanted to do. Part of me wanted to cancel it all together.. but that's just not my style. Let the chips fall where they may, I decided to go despite all the missed training, lack of sleep and just general craziness of planning a schedule with TV producers and see what happened. I vowed to have fun all day, even when I was doubting if I might even finish pre-race. Once I let it all go.. it all seemed to come together and God Blessed me with a day I will never forget.

First Female Amateur (6th overall with the professional women), 1st female 30-34 and a new run PR of 3:17. I still can't believe it to this day :)

Needless tosay I'm beyond thankful for the last month.

I have no idea what lies in store next, but I'm so ready to find out.

More race report in the next post, but trust me when I say.. I think it might be a good one! Thank you Kyle, my Mom, Dad, Family, Friends and everyone else who supports me. You make me so happy and empower me to overcome those who try and hold me down with their negativity and jealousy (which they will never do by the way :)! I love my life, I love the people in my life and I will never stop striving to be the best version of myself.. never.. it's going to be a crazy ride.. so hold on tight my friends!

More to come and thanks for your patience. I know this month hasn't been easy.. but it's been so so very worth it!

Staying Alive!

2011-07-17T12:18:00.002-07:00

I'm just leaving a quick message in Blogland to let all of you know I'm still alive and kickin! I promise to explain my absence very soon, but not yet. Rest assured that the reason is good and that I'm going into Lake Placid DEFINITELY NOT over-trained :)

Life is good, and I am thankful. I've had an amazing last two weeks and I'm looking forward to the next two as well. Then I'll clue all of you in to my fun news that has been keeping me busier than a one legged man in a butt kicking contest.

In other news, I'm taking a leave of absence from my regular position at work, and frankly, loving it. Yep, loving it. If you can believe it, it actually has been nice to view things from a different angle.

Kyle and I will still be traveling to Lake Placid this week and even thought things training-wise didn't go as planned, I'm convinced there is so man things that can happen and I'm not about to say I know the plan. Whatever does happen, I'm really thankful I'm healthy and I've always wanted to do see the sights in LP from my bike among friends and I'm going to do just that. Stranger things have happened than people going in a little underdone and still having a good day so I'm just hoping for that. I can't wait to hang with Jocelyn and Jeremy, my Ballou Skies Teammates, and remember what's it's like to race 140.6 miles! Plus I hear it is just breathtaking there so I can't wait.

I hope all my regular friends are still writing (and I can't wait to catch up and read what's going on) and I hope to see all of you on the other side. Thank you for all your support, kind words, love, prayers and ability to see things that I even can't at times. You make my life more enriched and give me the strength to step out and do things I never could on my own. When push comes to shove, it's those people in my life who always believe, always love and never, ever give up on me that I know God has placed in my life for a reason.

Thank you Kyle for stocking my fridge with good food when I was too busy to even go to the grocery store, My Aunt Dena for helping me see that if people have time to bitch they really don't have enough going on in their own lives to worry about and that life is a real gift, every single day.

If I don't get to post before the race (which most likely I won't), I'll take all the thoughts and prayers you want to extend and no matter what happens... I'm a lucky girl just to get to race!!

Talk to you all soon.. and miss you!!!!

USDA MyPlate & Timex Watch Giveaway Winner!

2011-07-01T08:37:00.005-07:00

I'm still alive! For those of you that know me, I must be REALLY busy not to post. Well, this week was busy x 4.

I've been wanting to bring you up to speed on USDA's release of the new look for the old pyramid and here it is! USDA MyPlate! Your stomach is not a garbage can (aka it MATTERS what you put in there!). MyPlate offers a visual reminder to make healthy food choices when you make decisions on your meals. The goal is to prioritize food choices by reminding us to make half our plate fruits and vegetables and the other important food groups fall in the other half, which are: whole grains, lean proteins and low fat dairy.

MyPlate or display on a mobile device and snap a photograph to show how and where you choose the best foods to put on your plates when building a healthy meal.">

Image copyright: http://www.choosemyplate.gov/

The part you may not know about is that you can head over the the USDA's Interactive Tools page to find information specific and individual to you including your calorie needs per day, number of food groups needed per day, printable food logs and much more! It's a wonderful place to help you or a friend / family member understand appropriate portion sizes, the benefits of each food group and you can even use the food tracker to log all of your meals letting you know how close you are to meeting your goals! It's a wonderful tool that many people can take advantage of absolutely free.

Obviously, along with eating healthy also comes getting more active. For many of us, that's via the swim, bike, run, but for others that can mean anything from walking the dog an additional lap around the park or even taking the stairs instead of the elevator! Don't forget Michelle Obama's initiative Let's Move! to enhance your overall quality of life.

I'd love to see what your plate looks like so feel free to twee it to me @fuelyourpassion! It helps inspire me share how well all of you are doing with the world!

Now, on to the big news! The winner of the Timex Ironman Watch Giveaway is (drum roll plllleeeeassseeee):

Erica! I hope you see this Eric because I see you don't have a blog so I can't comment on yours to leave you a message! Email me at kim@fuelyourpassion.net to claim your prize!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend and if you want to bike tomorrow for any portion of my VERY long ride, let me know!

Random Post & Timex Ironman Watch Giveaway!

2011-06-24T07:04:00.007-07:00

The insaneness of this week calls for something to be done. What that something is, I'm still deciding. Maybe it's the fact that I've had to deal with some people that are not only less than pleasant, but that also seem to have some complexes where they feel bullying and passive-aggressiveness is the way to get what they want. So, enough of spending one more second on people of that nature. Someday they just may regret the negative vibe they put out in the world, but for today, I'll just move on with my life and not let it get me down one bit.

The 23 hours of scheduled training has been a little tough to fit in, but I'm making it, slowly but surely. Every day up before the crack of dawn is a victory!

A quick tribute to my friend and training partner Jason J. who will be doing Ironman CDA this weekend and we're on to our giveaway! Jason is one of those people that when they enter you life, you are never quite the

same. We've known each other for about two years now and it has just been an amazing blessing. He's got a heart of gold and would honestly do anything for anyone that needed it. That's what stuck me about him so much at first, he's smart, sensitive and just an all around good guy. We've not been able to spend quite as much time together lately due to heavy training schedule and living about 30 mins apart, but I know he's more than ready for this weekend. So Jason (and Kiet, and Michelle and everyone else competing this weekend), this is your time. You've worked so hard for it! Don't let anything stand in your way!!! I'll be thinking of all of you and sending positive vibes your way!

Ok!! On to the fun stuff!!

My photos are just not loading right lately, so hopefully, you can see up in the right hand corner a brand new, in box Timex Ironman Running Watch that will be going to some lucky person! It is compatable with your ipod and in general, just really cool!

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Best of luck everyone and no matter what the world throws at you - remember!!!

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
Henry David Thoreau

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
Harriet Tubman

The secret of many a man's success in the world resides in his insight into the moods of men and his tact in dealing with them.
J. G. Holland

Hope is like the sun, which, as we journey toward it, casts the shadow of our burden behind us.
Samuel Smiles

Can I Get a "Re-do?"

2011-06-20T10:52:00.006-07:00

Most of the time in life, we do not get a Re-Do. Trust me, there are plenty of times I've wanted one! Especially when I decide to open mouth, insert foot (which actually seems to happen pretty often). We try to realize the important moments when their happening and capatalize on them, but we all know how tough it is. There are times when you screw it up, no matter what it is, and you don't get another chance. Whether it's the opportunity to apologize, talking to a friend about something tough, or even just making a big decision on a deadline. Sometimes you just have to do your best with the information you have, say a prayer, make the choice and move on.

Since last week I've of course spent a lot more time thinking about the fact that we are about 1/2 way through the triathlon season at this point. I've had two mediocure races (for me personally) and I feel like I've put in sooo much more time and effor than those two race results are showing.

Luckily, in triathlon, there's often more than one or two races per season for most of us. We get the chance to test strategies, hone in our nutrition plan and practice different pacing strategies. Even so, for the amount of time we spend, 5-6 races a season isn't THAT much to really get a chance to see how all our hard work is coming together. We get a FEW re-do's, but really, not that many and almost NEVER on the big ones.

Which brings me to my real topic. The game-dayers. You know them.. they're the ones that race really solid normally, but that when it comes to the really, really BIG races, they find a way to show up physically and mentally prepared no matter what. Things may not be going perfectly for them either, in fact, most of the time it's not (but you wouldn't know it to look at them). They are calm, they are cool and they have just the right amount of energy. They realize that coming into the race prepared yet with a healthy respect is key to their performance. They don't talk a big talk before (most of the time :) they just quietly go about executing their plan and when issues arise, they adapt, and they move forward.

I bring them up because I saw a few of those performances at Eagleman 70.3. Many of us would love for race day magic to show up on our door and bestow upon us a day where the wind is light, the current is strong (in the right direction), our equipment works perfectly and our legs show up. However, so many times (in fact more often than not) that isn't the case. As a coach, my responsibility is to physically and mentally prepare you to have "THAT" race. However, as an athlete the job remains that you must put the pieces of the puzzle together that day to the best of your ability. When you aren't getting race day magic what do you do?? Well, that's simple, you make some. That's what three athletes I saw do during that race. They needed a little race day magic, but when they didn't get it... they made it. They were willing to do whatever it took (within the safety of their own mind) and squeeze out every last drop until there wasn't a shadow of a doubt that they had used everything. I gurentee if you asked them, none of them would say the words "well, I felt great." They just didn't! However, when push came to shove, they wanted it more and they had done everything they could to put themselves into the position to take it.

The game-dayers are like that. They're the ones you see collapse at the finish line, puking and rallying and on the podium. The more time you spend in the sport, the more you learn how to harness the power of the game-dayer, but it won't come easily. On the contrary, it will hurt more than you thought you could humanly withstand, but in the end, you'll have found a new place that you never thought you could go before (and that you know you will go again).

It will take time, but don't give up hope. Keep searching for that place, keep pushing until you find it and when the opportunity comes don't leave anything out on the table.

Just like EMINEM says...

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime

I'm 31 years old. I'm by no means "young" in terms of age, but sometimes I still feel very "young" in the sport. Some people my age have been at it for 10+ years or more already. I only have about 5.5 under my belt. However, I don't have forever left either. I'll be getting better for about the next 3-6 years and then who knows what will happen after that (or even before that for that matter!).

There is one month and four days until Ironman Lake Placid. I'll be honest, I don't even feel remotely prepared right now. However, I trust my coach, I trust my plan and I know I will do not only the work but every little thing I can do to set myself up to pull something truly amazing out during that 140.6 miles (or I'll go down trying). Either way, I want to be a big gamedayer on that day like my friends from Eagleman. That's my NUMBER ONE GOAL. So, you mark my words, and be sure to ask me how I did with my goal on July 25th. I'll tell you strait up if I did it, or if I spent the day "wo-is meing" my way through. If I squeeze out every last drop, then I'll be happy. If I follow my plan to the best of my ability, then I will be a winner regardless of the outcome.

One month four days. Here we go.... Here we go..

Eagleman 70.3 - Lessons Learned

2011-06-15T07:47:00.027-07:00

There's so much to say, and so little at the same time! So I'll let the exceptional pictures Kyle took do the talking.

Every race I learn so much and Eagleman 70.3 was no different. It was my first chance to test swimming in open water this year, my chance to deal with extreme heat and see how I faired, and most of all, to hopefully really screw things up so I can get all that out of the way for the rest of the year (which I excelled at beautifully)! Kyle and I traveled down on Saturday and had a wonderful pre-race dinner with all those from Pittsburgh. All told, there had to be close to 35 of us doing the race from the area and 9 Ballou Skies athletes were in the house to represent.

I felt a calmness about the race. I had a plan and I intended to stick to it. Oh.. sometimes we make plans my friends, and God has a little chuckle :) All in all, I felt great going in and excited about the day to come.

My swim was slow (and didn't even CLOSE to show how very hard I've been working in the pool!), but everyone's seemed to be slow! I was very thankful I didn't know my time once I saw it later in the day.

The plan was to push the bike and see where we ended up. In all honesty, I had good sections and bad sections just like everyone else that day. At about mile 30 of the bike I started feeling a tad bit nauseous for no particular reason.

The Mark Allen Fluid Energizer from Infinit had never let me down before even in the hottest conditions. I took a few minutes an assessed the situation. I decided to switch to water / gels to help settle things down, so I would wait for the next aid station to grab it (which seemed like a very long time coming, and it was). In hindsight, I should have kept drinking anyway, even if I threw it up later.

The lesson here is dehydration hurts much more than loosing a little and starting over! By the time I switched to water, I only had about 15 miles left and I was at least 24oz short of my hydration goal for the bike.. aka.. a recipe for disaster on a hot humid day. I've had this happen two other times in my career (in terms of massive dehydration on the run, not exactly the same reasons) so you would think I could get this down! I finished the bike with a 2:32, not exactly what I was hoping (really wanted to go under 2:30!), but I was on to the run.

However, what I did next WAS the result of those experiences and lessons learned. Other times I've ended up with 6 liters of IV fluid a med tent and a whole lot of scary for myself and my family (and a Kona spot). However, today was not the day to put myself in that position. My Kona slot was already mine and I wanted to finish the race standing, not in the ambulance. During mile one of the run I was still feeling pretty good. I passed Liz and we had a nice exchange. By mile three, I was toast, overheating, high heart rate, felt dizzy and like general crap. My pace dropped off and I knew I was in trouble.

It was time to walk the aid stations. I hated to do it, but I was in such poor shape to keep running without trying to get in extra fluids would have been a recipe for disaster. During each station I drank at least two glasses of water and a Powerade Endurance. Liz reminded me of the trick (ice down the bra over the heart!) and that was a lifesaver. Thanks Liz! She looked great when she blew by me so I hoped she was on her way to a Kona spot - and darn it, she was!

I talked myself into running aid station to aid station. Yes, we've all been there.. not so fun. I exchanged words with a few competitors about the heat and decided there is no crying in triathlon.. so I would just be sucking it up and finishing no matter what, even if I had to walk the whole half marathon. Ryan Ballou never quits.. and neither does this girl.
I saw Beth and she was running so tough. Jocelyn too. Each and every thought was trying to crush out the negative voices and replace them with positives "you're friends are right there, they're hurting too - if they can do it, you can do it!" I kept shuffling until finally, around mile 7 things started to turn around. I could feel life coming back into my body and while it still hurt, it wasn't nearly the dizzy awful shuffle it was before. Never did I glance at my watch after mile 2, not one time.. I didn't want to know! It was for the better! I saw my teammates, slapped fives and thanked volunteers - hey, I had time! It became about enjoying the experience and not forgetting about why I loved this sport in the first place. Finally, right before the finish a girl yelled out "I READ YOUR BLOG" coming the other way out of transition and I smiled from ear to ear. I yelled thanks even though I was dying and it just gave me the strength to not be a sour puss about my race and be thankful to just be out there. We are truly blessed to be healthy enough to race. That's for sure.

Speaking of that..

The real heroes of the day are below.. The Challenged Athlete Foundation.
They may not wear a cape, but these athletes are REAL HEROES and their helpers are angels. Did you know that they announced Ryan Ballou and Ballou Skies before the race AND that one of these athletes DID have DMD? How amazing is that.... coincidence? I think not.
My heart just swells when I see pictures like this. I know.. sappy, but I don't care. How could I even remotely be dissatisfied with my race or think about myself when I see these pictures. These kids are amazing and what an experience...crossing the finish line is a victory.. for them, and for me.. every single time.
The courage in their little finger is more than I will ever be able to muster and I'm so thankful that we have the opportunity to share the course with them.
I gave a thumbs up each time, but that was little compared to their helpers, friends and family who love them and support them every day. Thanks to CAF for making dreams come true and for showing us the real meaning of the sport. Thank you Ballou Skies for teaching me that even a not perfect day, is still the best day ever to be out there living my dreams and supporting this great research.
On July 9th I will be doing a bike ride to benefit the charity. If any of you would like to place a one time donation or a donation per mile, please let me know. We'll make it happen. Great job to everyone who was out there on Sunday and racing all over the world. Hats off to Joe and Beth for chasing those Kona slots and getting their ticket to the big dance. You both inspire me to never quit on my dreams which are very much alive!! I'm not giving up!! I have not yet begun to fight!!
Lastly, a big shout out to my athlete Tom who completed his second half ironman to date at Eagleman 70.3 on Sunday. He had a bit of cramping at mile 10, but otherwise NAILED it and executed a perfect race. Way to go Tom! You have a long and happy road ahead of you in triathlon and I hope to be part of the journey.

Kyle - you are my biggest supporter and my life. I'm so lucky that you've decided to weather this crazy journey with me and make me laugh so hard I cry, comfort me in times of disappointment and remind me how lucky I am just to get the chance love you with everything you do for me.

To all the friendly faces - Mary E, Jen H, Liz, my fellow Pittsburghers and friends - you are my heart and soul and one of the biggest reasons I'm in this sport. Seeing your faces made me want to go on and push harder. The female camaraderie between some of us is amazing and I'm just so thankful for it each time I race. We are warriors together ladies... warriors.

Thanks to my sponsors who never give up on me and see me though my mistakes, learning experiences and great days! Thanks to my blog fans like that girl - whoever you are! You made my day!!!!!!!!

Trust Yourself

2011-06-10T08:22:00.013-07:00

After my first Half Ironman at Eagleman 2007 - Can I just say this is Jocelyn and Jeremy married couple (who at the time were Jeremy & Jocelyn BF / GF) in the background and I didn't even KNOW them yet! Now, we are best of friends and even Ballou Skies Teammates!! Who would have thought!

The title of this blog is a phrase I often use with my athletes as they are preparing to race. I've been using it with myself for years now and it has a definite significance for me. You see, I've been racing for a long a time and I feel fortunate that one thing I do have, even if it's not in triathlon, is experience with the process of "how to race."

As many of my athletes are pretty new to this, I do a lot of "pre-race" coaching talking about this subject. People are nervous, I get that, I've been nervous... often times in the beginning so nervous I didn't sleep but a two or three hours before races. Nervous is good! Nervous means you CARE! If you weren't nervous, I'd be nervous as a coach!

However, in my beginning days my college coach would pull me aside as I was about to step up to toe the line with the best girls in the Big Ten. She would give me this same talk, just about every time, until I was a senior (I was a walk on from a VERY small high school and needless to say I was FREAKED OUT to be on a traveling team for a Division One School for my first TWO years). She would encourage me to think about all the hard sessions I had done, the days and weeks of miles, double days, hill repeats, and strength workouts where I couldn't think I could do one more, and then, I did. I found the strength well up from somewhere deep in my soul and I would always make it happen. She would tell me to remember those experiences, draw from them, and call them up on race day to give me the courage I needed to get myself to the starting line and then, finally to the finish line. The same thing is true for me now. Prior to any race I spend quite a bit of time thinking about the countless hours of pool time, hammering out 200's with only 2-3 seconds rest or intervals on the bike or finally, tough track workouts of 1200-800-400-200 TIMES THREE. This is what I need, to remember the times I did nail it so that I know, I'm ready (aka not thinking about the many times I did not, or missed workouts or whatever).

In college, when I was so worried I was running to the bathroom every 2 minutes, she would stop me look in my eyes and say "Fake it, until you make it Kim, Fake it until you make it." I would buck up and pretend I was cool and confident (as possible) and head out on the course.

When push comes to shove, you love to race, you're going to race and regardless of what might have gone wrong in your training. The facts are, at this point, it really doesn't matter. Really nothing else matters except for how you handle the chatter going on in your head. When those voices come that tell you "you're not good enough, you're not ready, you haven't done enough" you need to be ready to trust yourself.. to know that you ARE ready and that you will execute your plan, no matter what the course, the weather, the equipment throws at you.

This is the best advice I can give you is this when so many of you are getting ready to race this weekend. I did my first half ironman ever at Eagleman at 2007, and now I'm returning after my first Ironman at the World Championships in 2008, breaking myself at Clearwater, countless other half ironmans, sprints and olympics and then having one of my dreams actually come to fruition - winning an Ironman in Cozumel.

I never thought I would come this far in the sport, and I am certainly thankful for the many pieces of advice I have been given. If I can do one thing for you that helps you, it is to tell you - you are ready.. and you will succeed.. if you just get out of your own way sometimes. Enjoy the experience and never, ever give up on yourself. You're much stronger than you think you are (when the pavement is actually raidating heat up through your shoes and you feel like from head to toe you are actually ON FIRE), you absolutely MUST keep these things in mind.

The good news is, my friends, you are amazing, and your comments touched me so much. I read them all and it sounds like I'm not the only one who's even close to been through this funk that I experienced the last few weeks and I'm PULLING OUT! So thank you, thank you, a million times thank you!!

This week of rest was just what I needed. I feel so much better and I'm so excited to see friends and travel down with my hubby this weekend! It will be so much fun. Many of my Ballou Skies teammates will be there and it will be a great weekend to go out and leave every last drop on the race course. I can't promise anything else, but I do promise that.

If you're racing this weekend - go HARD and have fun!!

Rolling in the Deep.. Funk..

2011-06-07T09:29:00.008-07:00

Lately I seemed to have picked up a bit of a funk. No, it's not a virus or a bug of some sort.. it's just well, a funk. Another friend asked me to define a "funk" and all I could say was:

A general feeling of semi-depression with a side of lack of confidence and motivation. Hummm...yep...that's a funk all right :)

In case you hadn't noticed (or hadn't been reading this blog very long), I'm generally a pretty darn happy person (with the exception of late 2009 / early 2010 when I was going through some pretty crappy stuff!). Besides that, I pretty much love my life, love to train, love to be busy and love spending time with my friends and family.. oh..and food, I loooovvvee healthy, yummy good food... oh..and summer. Anyway, I could go on and on about things of that nature.

It's not training per say, because let's be honest, considering how much time I spend doing it, it does impact my mood a bit when it's not going well. I've had a few really hot as buckets runs which have left me wondering just how slow I can get when the heat climbs! I've had a few big weeks where I've nailed it (and definitely a few more where I most certainly have not). Finally, I've had so many things going on outside of training including athletes races, giving speeches, doing a TV interview etc. that have kept me a little too busy, probably more so than I would like.

On Sunday night I had just about had it, it wasn't the weekend, that was great.. but the funk was in full swing and I was just NOT feeling great. Something of a combination of just not wanting to communicate with my coach lately (sorry Justin - "yes, I'm still alive, I'm just going through..well, a funk" was my text message yesterday) and not feeling like working out (soo unlike me!). Maybe it was the mental gymnastics I had to go through in order to fit in about 85% of what I needed to do last week to get the workouts done. Who knows, either way, it was setting in hard and I think the best thing you can do when that happens is to treat yourself well, be thankful, pray for those less fortunate or going through tough stuff (and the list has been long lately) and do your best to get more sleep / try not to think about it.

I still got up Monday AM and swam, and luckily, it seems to be clearing up a little as I taper just a tad wee bit for Eagleman 70.3 this coming weekend. It's safe to say that no matter what you're doing, if you're stretched too thin, will eventually wear on you as you grind it out week in and week out. I've met VERY few athletes who don't get burnt out once in awhile (Beth S., my good friend being one of them, I wish I had her resolve or whatever it is that she does to ward it off!). Most likely, it's the combo of everything, working 40, some weeks getting up around 21 - 22 hours of swim, bike, run, lift time, and just trying to keep too many balls in the air.

Slowly but surely, I think I'm coming out, and I am starting, slowly, to get excited to race this weekend. On Sunday I could have canned it and not even have cared (again, WAY weird for me), but I'm eating well, taking it a bit easier this week (aka using the word "NO") and feeling a bit better.

Riding with the girls on Saturday was wonderful and is so much of the reason why I do this sport. It was just awesome to be out with them seeing the sights and getting in some good time!
Kyle and I had a great date night on Saturday which helped too! We rode the ferris wheel! Does it get any better than that!

Does anyone else have trouble with "The Funk" sometimes? What do you do to combat this motivation steeling, life sucking monster? Any good strategies or ideas?

Even the weather has been great! So that's not it either! No complaints from this chick!

I've been getting fit on the bike, but have decided not to change it up right before a big race like Eagleman. It just doesn't make sense. Coach is running these pics through silicon sometime soon to see if we are on the right track with my long femur!

Blue, five years old and still kickin. Blue's first half ironman race was Eagleman in 2006 (well, mine too!), so it will be nice to be back on the saddle again!

Somehow I've been chosen as one of the pictures in a "picture contest" for the Dick's Half Marathon from a few weeks ago.

They did this with the shot which was pretty cool! I'm not sure they are still voting but you can check it out!

Thanks for the thoughts as always! Keep up the good work friends!!

Friends & Family

2011-06-01T09:41:00.008-07:00

Jocelyn and I

Jim and I at Clearwater 2009

Aunt Dena and I at Brian's Wedding last year!

Lisa and I at the Pitt 1/2 Marathon

All I can say is that it's a dang good thing that we have them. I don't know about you, but it seems like all over there is heartache, tough stuff and sometimes, even tougher stuff. My friends have been getting dished their fair share lately and my heart just breaks for them sometimes. The good news is:

They are strong people

They are more than capable

and with their faith rooted firmly where it should be, they can handle anything this world throws at them.

I'm a lucky girl to get to see their strength and just how amazing they truly are, both inside and out. Every time I get down because I missed ANOTHER swim workout or just don't feel great on a run I think of how many people in this world are going through things that are 100% harder so I better just buck up and stop feeling sorry for myself.

We're ALL balancing a million things and trying to keep things in perspective. I feel thankful that I can have friends that I know will be with me for life!

J and I in Aruba!

Barb, Heidi and I at NOLA 70.3 (Good Luck this weekend at Quazzy Barb! - you're going to do great!)

And lastly, I thank the world for animal friends. Who else would let you do this to their hair and just sit there still looking cute! A friend stopped by with their cutie dog and I got to hang out with Prince Jr. for a bit! SO freakin adorable!

Hope everyone is having a great week! Tonight is the big speech! Here we go!!